한국을 좋아해~!
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big bang!
allkpop
the face shop
beauty credit
the skin food
etude house
나의 평생에 선하심과 인자하심이 정녕 나를 따르리니 내가 여호와의 집에 영원히 거하리로다.
=spiritual food=
new creation church hillsong australia
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Saturday, February 21, 2009
went for care group again, after a year of being MIA...
VERY grateful for fredrik, who really went all the way to make sure i came.
he had waited 45mins for me sitting by the road, and made me very touched when he shared his heart during the 15min walk there, then he made sure i was comfortable throughout cg and supper...
really nice to have han purposely come up to me to tell me he welcomes me any time, and to ask about what's been going on in my life. it meant a lot to me, for a leader to make me feel like family again.
really sweet of louis to "make the decision" for me to join them for supper, and of all 20 girls there, he called out for me to join him in his car (front seat!) to get to the supper place, bcos i was "wearing heels" (but all the girls were wearing heels?). i was a bit embarrassed though to leave fredrik walking there alone.
i'm just so touched bcos God really loves me so much to send wonderful people into my life to love me - friends who show they care for me and who stick with me through thick and thin even after seeing all my "chao kuan". those whom you know may be missing from your life for a while, but you know they always care.
may i say again, that i'm so grateful especially for my brothers? they show me how a girl should always be taken care of by a guy, and most imptly they share the unconditional love of God with you. when i thought about how i've known fredrik (and the whole gang) for almost 7 years, i was amazed. the 7 years seem to have just passed in the blinking of an eye, yet it was so full and so fun. such friendship really takes God's favour... bcos i see myself on another side trying so hard to maintain a friendship where 1 year seems to be ages, yet i find myself not really knowing the person at all.
i guess it takes both sides to be able to pull down all their walls and defences, and to be completely vulnerable to each other in our weaknesses before such friendships can be built. ultimately, i am reminded again that God has to be the third party holding any relationship together, and i cannot be the only one holding on.
이제 마음이 진짜 그만 한다. 내가 너한테 더 이상 기대할 것 없다. 친구도 됄 수 없으면... 이렇게 다시 보지 않아도 괜찬아. 그래도... 행복해 야돼.
today we said goodbye to candy and sent her off for the last time. it made me so sad to watch jayden and jaelynn go through the rites having no clue as to what was really happening, and to look upon them and see candy's resemblance in them. but like what is written in God's word, "Though sorrow may last for the night, His joy comes with the morning." there is a time to mourn, but then after that, it is not easy to cry anymore when i think of how she is in so much joy and peace with Jesus now. surely, her children shall be taught of the Lord, even more precious than ever before.
thoughts that wonder how a sweet, gentle, kind and loving woman like candy could only see such short days in her life sometimes run through my head... she never complained, and always saw the best in everyone. why was it she had to go through so much pain she didn't deserve, and why was it that even with all the prayers and believing, she still passed on... but ultimately, God said we all live by faith, and not by sight right? because we have to believe... we have no choice but to believe... to the very end, i will still believe. while i have the strength, i will keep praying and keep believing.
with so much that has happened in just one week, i guess the one thing that really spoke to me was about how i live this life. suddenly, a lot of things that used to get me down don't seem significant anymore. this life i live is about bringing the love of God to those around me right? about loving and cherishing the living...
just so happens tmrw is valentine's day... i have no valentine, but i rcvd much love today at work:
with dear addy 언니~ we've laughed together and cried together... and here we are, both looking gorgeous still even though our faces are bare. heh.
and our new sista - ling fang, made me a wonderful gift! a lovely pink rose and the photoboard filled with my cutie yongyong's face! the pink heart (that says chicken in korean. private joke. snigger.) courtesy of addy. really makes me smile. :)
here it is, the latest addition to my desk that is already filled with so many other wonderful memories.
to a glorious new day.
my dear sister...
bye for now candy...
until i see you back in Daddy's house...
after these two days of tears, there is so much more peace within.
i know Jesus, that before ever i prayed, You have already provided.
i will be still, and see Your salvation.
for her. and her.
i'm so glad she opened her eyes and smiled at me for that instant.
i'm so glad she could hear me talking to her and how she looked up at me.
i just wish it would be just like the dream i had last night, that she'd get up and talk to me.
was it bcos i missed her so much, or maybe it was You trying to tell me something?
how i wish i could muster up the courage to lay my hands on her and pray out loud boldly.
yet everything got choked up inside me just looking at her.
i don't know what else to say. the hardest thing to do is to believe.
but it is the only thing now that i can do for her.
i know that above all, You love her so much and her life is so precious to You.
언니를 봐서 그 사람의 어머니를 생각났어요. 어머니도 그렇게 아파나 봐요... 그래서 난 마음에 더 아파요. 미국에 돌아간 다고 말하고 싶어요. 우리 다시 만나지 않으면도 괜찮다고 말하고 싶어요. 근데 이 말은 진심인지 나도 잘 몰르겠어요... 그 사람한테 난 아무것도 할 수 없어요. 그냥 계속 기도만 해요.
jae suk came by KP today to chat and also to pass me this present... sparkling peach body splash from bath & body works. ok i admit it. i am glad for the present (bcos it smells so yummy)! it's been nearly 2 months since he returned to the US for the winter hols, and i guess it's really nice he took the effort to travel out in the snowstorm (waist-high snow apparently) and had rmbrd i wanted the peach (actually peach AND apple). and i guess it's nice also that he DID buy it even though i told him again and again not to bother to. anyways... emotional complications. 마음이 다시 흔들었어. 만나고 싶지 않다고 말했는데 또 만났어. 피하려고 했는데 말만나서 기분이 좋아서 진짜 고민해요. 난 몰라!
oh, and the korean bboy theatre "Breakout!" is coming to Singapore! ga eun msned me to say she'd be coming too! so glad to be able to see her so soon again... she was really kind to me the last 2 times i was in seoul. think will be spending some time hanging out with her next sunday before i watch the 8pm show! yay!
oh and there's this cute young korean oppa teaching taekwondo in KP now. all single girls come check out! black belt ok! heh.
completely felt like a princess yesterday.
went for care group again, after a year of being MIA...
VERY grateful for fredrik, who really went all the way to make sure i came.
he had waited 45mins for me sitting by the road, and made me very touched when he shared his heart during the 15min walk there, then he made sure i was comfortable throughout cg and supper...
really nice to have han purposely come up to me to tell me he welcomes me any time, and to ask about what's been going on in my life. it meant a lot to me, for a leader to make me feel like family again.
really sweet of louis to "make the decision" for me to join them for supper, and of all 20 girls there, he called out for me to join him in his car (front seat!) to get to the supper place, bcos i was "wearing heels" (but all the girls were wearing heels?). i was a bit embarrassed though to leave fredrik walking there alone.
i'm just so touched bcos God really loves me so much to send wonderful people into my life to love me - friends who show they care for me and who stick with me through thick and thin even after seeing all my "chao kuan". those whom you know may be missing from your life for a while, but you know they always care.
may i say again, that i'm so grateful especially for my brothers? they show me how a girl should always be taken care of by a guy, and most imptly they share the unconditional love of God with you. when i thought about how i've known fredrik (and the whole gang) for almost 7 years, i was amazed. the 7 years seem to have just passed in the blinking of an eye, yet it was so full and so fun. such friendship really takes God's favour... bcos i see myself on another side trying so hard to maintain a friendship where 1 year seems to be ages, yet i find myself not really knowing the person at all.
i guess it takes both sides to be able to pull down all their walls and defences, and to be completely vulnerable to each other in our weaknesses before such friendships can be built. ultimately, i am reminded again that God has to be the third party holding any relationship together, and i cannot be the only one holding on.
이제 마음이 진짜 그만 한다. 내가 너한테 더 이상 기대할 것 없다. 친구도 됄 수 없으면... 이렇게 다시 보지 않아도 괜찬아. 그래도... 행복해 야돼.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
you taught me how to live life through how you lived yours.
today we said goodbye to candy and sent her off for the last time. it made me so sad to watch jayden and jaelynn go through the rites having no clue as to what was really happening, and to look upon them and see candy's resemblance in them. but like what is written in God's word, "Though sorrow may last for the night, His joy comes with the morning." there is a time to mourn, but then after that, it is not easy to cry anymore when i think of how she is in so much joy and peace with Jesus now. surely, her children shall be taught of the Lord, even more precious than ever before.
thoughts that wonder how a sweet, gentle, kind and loving woman like candy could only see such short days in her life sometimes run through my head... she never complained, and always saw the best in everyone. why was it she had to go through so much pain she didn't deserve, and why was it that even with all the prayers and believing, she still passed on... but ultimately, God said we all live by faith, and not by sight right? because we have to believe... we have no choice but to believe... to the very end, i will still believe. while i have the strength, i will keep praying and keep believing.
with so much that has happened in just one week, i guess the one thing that really spoke to me was about how i live this life. suddenly, a lot of things that used to get me down don't seem significant anymore. this life i live is about bringing the love of God to those around me right? about loving and cherishing the living...
just so happens tmrw is valentine's day... i have no valentine, but i rcvd much love today at work:
with dear addy 언니~ we've laughed together and cried together... and here we are, both looking gorgeous still even though our faces are bare. heh.
and our new sista - ling fang, made me a wonderful gift! a lovely pink rose and the photoboard filled with my cutie yongyong's face! the pink heart (that says chicken in korean. private joke. snigger.) courtesy of addy. really makes me smile. :)
here it is, the latest addition to my desk that is already filled with so many other wonderful memories.to a glorious new day.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
my dear sister...
bye for now candy...
until i see you back in Daddy's house...
i'll be missing you.
Sunday, February 08, 2009
went see her after church and got to pray in tongues while holding her hand...
after these two days of tears, there is so much more peace within.
i know Jesus, that before ever i prayed, You have already provided.
i will be still, and see Your salvation.
for her. and her.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Jesus...
i'm so glad she opened her eyes and smiled at me for that instant.
i'm so glad she could hear me talking to her and how she looked up at me.
i just wish it would be just like the dream i had last night, that she'd get up and talk to me.
was it bcos i missed her so much, or maybe it was You trying to tell me something?
how i wish i could muster up the courage to lay my hands on her and pray out loud boldly.
yet everything got choked up inside me just looking at her.
i don't know what else to say. the hardest thing to do is to believe.
but it is the only thing now that i can do for her.
i know that above all, You love her so much and her life is so precious to You.
언니를 봐서 그 사람의 어머니를 생각났어요. 어머니도 그렇게 아파나 봐요... 그래서 난 마음에 더 아파요. 미국에 돌아간 다고 말하고 싶어요. 우리 다시 만나지 않으면도 괜찮다고 말하고 싶어요. 근데 이 말은 진심인지 나도 잘 몰르겠어요... 그 사람한테 난 아무것도 할 수 없어요. 그냥 계속 기도만 해요.
Friday, February 06, 2009
jae suk came by KP today to chat and also to pass me this present... sparkling peach body splash from bath & body works. ok i admit it. i am glad for the present (bcos it smells so yummy)! it's been nearly 2 months since he returned to the US for the winter hols, and i guess it's really nice he took the effort to travel out in the snowstorm (waist-high snow apparently) and had rmbrd i wanted the peach (actually peach AND apple). and i guess it's nice also that he DID buy it even though i told him again and again not to bother to. anyways... emotional complications. 마음이 다시 흔들었어. 만나고 싶지 않다고 말했는데 또 만났어. 피하려고 했는데 말만나서 기분이 좋아서 진짜 고민해요. 난 몰라!oh, and the korean bboy theatre "Breakout!" is coming to Singapore! ga eun msned me to say she'd be coming too! so glad to be able to see her so soon again... she was really kind to me the last 2 times i was in seoul. think will be spending some time hanging out with her next sunday before i watch the 8pm show! yay!
oh and there's this cute young korean oppa teaching taekwondo in KP now. all single girls come check out! black belt ok! heh.
for whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
Romans 8:29-30