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=spiritual food=
new creation church hillsong australia
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Friday, March 31, 2006
babes at servers night 06!
me sheryl n xingjing...
act sae...
well, my interview at X hotel for a sales n marketing position was supposed to be at 10am, so i got home n went to bed at 2am hoping to wake at 7am. in the end i tossed n turned n only cld get to slp at 4am! *faint* i was asking myself whether is cos i kancheong, but no leh... i tink is cos of all the peach tea n the starbucks coffee i had before coming home! but praise God i had such a restful slp, n i was actually early for the interview. of cos i felt some jitters, so while i was waiting i prayed silently in tongues... i din have much time to prepare for the interview, but i felt a peace knowing that whoever i was going to present to them was the real person i have to offer. those pple walking in n out were so friendly, smiling n greeting me, so i had quite good first impression.
but then this lady (whom i found out AFTER the interview to be the director of sales) came n interviewed me, which i tink lasted 30mins. i dun wanna narrate the whole story here, all i can say is i felt such hostility, to a point where i felt she was being rude, gave me the feeling she cldn't be bothered with me. she was making me real irritated, so when she showed me her exasperation of not being able to figure out my personality n asked what made me happy in life, i thought a while n just said "God makes me happy". n then she asked abt whether i was willing to give up ALL my weekends, which i told her NO to sundays definitely. dat seemed to get her sadistically happy to have gotten me into a corner or something, cos she told me i'd have no choice in that... i mean like, if i wanted to give up weekends i'd have gone to work in front office or something rite! why choose the sales n marketing which is supposedly office hours!! anyway, i left her with a smile n handshake, n thanked her for her time... to which she oso smiled, for the first time! ARGH!
ok lah, i dun wanna go on oso abt what a bad impression of X hotel she gave me... i heard later that she was just giving me a hard time on purpose. anyway i went over to tangs, bought myself a cool cup of sugar cane juice n sat down outside zara in taka watching pple walk by. u know, i was really so angry with her attitude towards someone she was supposed to try to get to know... how she's frm the hospi industry yet she dosen't know the meaning of service. den SELF-CONDEMNATION crept in! i asked myself whether i should have even mentioned God's place in my life at all... like, how weird she must think i am, some holy-moly girl saying such things in an interview. but truly there IS therefore NOW no condemnation for those who are in Christ! bcos immediately after i asked myself that, such an immense PEACE took over! like Jesus din say anything but just gave me a hug... then it came to me, WHAT FREEDOM WE HAVE IN CHRIST! freedom to be who we are are called to be! it was like a WOOOOOOOSH of release frm within me!
well, i went to brightstar after that to help sheryl do some work... n that peace was like confirmed in me lidat. what a different environment from the hotel i had just emerged from... the hotel felt so cold, but in brightstar all the children made it such a joyful place. especially when sheryl brought my lover-boy joash in n he rmbred me - "teacher sharmaine!" haha... so sweet. nt that i'm tinking of going into childcare now, but it just made me sure of what i wanted n what i din want, that i had choices. n i tink BS was totally for me lah. haha... pastor prince came out during worship, n he said, "are you ashamed of the gospel? bcos Jesus definitely WASN'T ashamed to die for you on that cross!" HALLELUJAH! it's really so simple. Jesus' love in my life and for my life is real, how do you hide Jesus when He's your everything? my identity is not that of a fresh-poly-grad-looking-for-job-cos-dun-wanna-go-uni, it IS, HAS BEEN, and ALWAYS WILL BE that of Jesus' most precious most beloved most favoured most blessed most glorious daughter!
"The Lord your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over You with singing." - zephaniah 3:17
just for laughs... and some cheap thrill on my part. haha! see... faith picture works!
cousins etc at shaun's wedding! tho the bride (wendy) n groom aren't in the pic. haha.
Jesus, thank You that i am FREE to receive every blessing You died to give to me.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten Son, that whosoever believes shall not perish, but have everlasting life. - John 3:16
we all know this verse so well, yet a lot of times we miss out so often the very sole reason why God gave us Jesus. bcos He LOVED us, even before we knew Him. being conscious of His love places us in the security of His protection! such a SIMPLE truth. yet SO VERY POWERFUL. i want this truth to be embedded in my every cell. if i shld rmbr nothing else abt what the Bible says, i want to rmbr His love for me. tdy was my first time walking into a&e, n i NEVER wanna hear anything abt it or step into it again.
korean hottie!
so cute!!
hot look!
right now, ahead of me i see 2 choices. further studies or work. pa asked me once if i wanted to further, n when i answered no, it seemed to end the topic there n then. maybe i'm glad for that, cos i dun feel like furthering, or maybe i've convinced myself that the last 2 yrs... i want so much the "freedom" that earning my income gives. anyway, i'm enjoying my free time now... taking my time to do wat i've been wanting to do. until further notice.
babes at servers night 06!
me sheryl n xingjing...
act sae...
had campus servers' night at suntec olio dome on wed night... the food was DELICIOUS! heh... i din care whether i was all dressed up; while other pple were talking, i was busy stuffing myself with the wonderful creamy mushroom pasta, pan-fried dory, roast beef and tiramisu... =D well of cos i did get to talk to some, n take some photos, but wat was most precious to me was just being there i guess... to hear pastor chin share his heart for us servers, to be enjoying good food with my fellow bros n sistas in Christ, and to see jonathan do the i-gallop! hahaha... i felt so refreshed by just being in such a presence n enjoying the fellowship. i had an interview the next morning, but this night just reminded me of how supernatural we as the children of Almighty God are, that we are able to enjoy such a peace in knowing Abba takes care of our everything.
well, my interview at X hotel for a sales n marketing position was supposed to be at 10am, so i got home n went to bed at 2am hoping to wake at 7am. in the end i tossed n turned n only cld get to slp at 4am! *faint* i was asking myself whether is cos i kancheong, but no leh... i tink is cos of all the peach tea n the starbucks coffee i had before coming home! but praise God i had such a restful slp, n i was actually early for the interview. of cos i felt some jitters, so while i was waiting i prayed silently in tongues... i din have much time to prepare for the interview, but i felt a peace knowing that whoever i was going to present to them was the real person i have to offer. those pple walking in n out were so friendly, smiling n greeting me, so i had quite good first impression.
but then this lady (whom i found out AFTER the interview to be the director of sales) came n interviewed me, which i tink lasted 30mins. i dun wanna narrate the whole story here, all i can say is i felt such hostility, to a point where i felt she was being rude, gave me the feeling she cldn't be bothered with me. she was making me real irritated, so when she showed me her exasperation of not being able to figure out my personality n asked what made me happy in life, i thought a while n just said "God makes me happy". n then she asked abt whether i was willing to give up ALL my weekends, which i told her NO to sundays definitely. dat seemed to get her sadistically happy to have gotten me into a corner or something, cos she told me i'd have no choice in that... i mean like, if i wanted to give up weekends i'd have gone to work in front office or something rite! why choose the sales n marketing which is supposedly office hours!! anyway, i left her with a smile n handshake, n thanked her for her time... to which she oso smiled, for the first time! ARGH!
ok lah, i dun wanna go on oso abt what a bad impression of X hotel she gave me... i heard later that she was just giving me a hard time on purpose. anyway i went over to tangs, bought myself a cool cup of sugar cane juice n sat down outside zara in taka watching pple walk by. u know, i was really so angry with her attitude towards someone she was supposed to try to get to know... how she's frm the hospi industry yet she dosen't know the meaning of service. den SELF-CONDEMNATION crept in! i asked myself whether i should have even mentioned God's place in my life at all... like, how weird she must think i am, some holy-moly girl saying such things in an interview. but truly there IS therefore NOW no condemnation for those who are in Christ! bcos immediately after i asked myself that, such an immense PEACE took over! like Jesus din say anything but just gave me a hug... then it came to me, WHAT FREEDOM WE HAVE IN CHRIST! freedom to be who we are are called to be! it was like a WOOOOOOOSH of release frm within me!
well, i went to brightstar after that to help sheryl do some work... n that peace was like confirmed in me lidat. what a different environment from the hotel i had just emerged from... the hotel felt so cold, but in brightstar all the children made it such a joyful place. especially when sheryl brought my lover-boy joash in n he rmbred me - "teacher sharmaine!" haha... so sweet. nt that i'm tinking of going into childcare now, but it just made me sure of what i wanted n what i din want, that i had choices. n i tink BS was totally for me lah. haha... pastor prince came out during worship, n he said, "are you ashamed of the gospel? bcos Jesus definitely WASN'T ashamed to die for you on that cross!" HALLELUJAH! it's really so simple. Jesus' love in my life and for my life is real, how do you hide Jesus when He's your everything? my identity is not that of a fresh-poly-grad-looking-for-job-cos-dun-wanna-go-uni, it IS, HAS BEEN, and ALWAYS WILL BE that of Jesus' most precious most beloved most favoured most blessed most glorious daughter!
Monday, March 27, 2006
Abba... i only want what's mine, what You have for me. thank You that i only have the best of heaven for all that i desire...
Saturday, March 25, 2006
i've so gotta blog this! i was using my comp till the wee hours of the morning, blogging the previous entry actually, when it suddenly hung on me! -_-" i took a look at my hp to see the time, n it read 3:33am... n it was as if the Holy Spirit tugged me on the inside, stopping the comp trying to make His point across to me. He reminded me of Jeremiah 33:3, which my sunday sch teacher once said it as "God's phone no.". i knew it was something abt calling on God, but cldn't really finish the verse. i just knew God had something in it for me, so i checked it out:
"Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know."
when God speaks to you like this, when His words of love, of hope, of peace, of promise... just jump out at you from the bible, how can faith not arise? i din pray for hours asking God to talk to me, in fact i din really hold a conversation with Him... wasn't being purposely conscious of His presence. i knew i needed His comfort, but all i cld manage were inner groanings... n God just pushed past all my emotions to reach me, to assure me... n He just added bonus verse:
"The Lord your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over You with singing." - zephaniah 3:17
God dosen't show me His great and mighty works bcos He wants to show His omnipotence to the world, although it results in that... He wants so much to be my first and everything bcos He's so jealous over me, n refuses to let sub-standards have me. wahlau. my life is a heart-moving, tear-jerking love story in the making leh. haha. better than all the korean dramas. all copycats (okok, anti-climax... haha.)! dosen't mean i'll stop watching tho. i learn my korean there. haha.
i'm NOT being emo. not on purpose anyway... tdy's cg msg toked abt insecurities. tho i din share, it got me tinking back on the things that happened in the past few yrs. n i realise some emotional baggage are still ard. it can be easy to be led by my emotions again n start to fear... again. but i look back n i see how Christ was always with me, guarding my heart from the full blast of hurt that i'd have rcvd if not for Him. truly i am what i am tdy by the grace of God...
forgiveness is an ongoing process. a supernatural process. that takes place when you choose to love, bcos you know how loved you are by Jesus- the one Man who chose without any doubt to love you 2,000 yrs before you were even conceived n to bear every stroke, nail n stripe for all His blessings to become yours. i once heard how we're so precious to Jesus, that every single tear we cry, He does not let them go in vain, but He sees n collects each drop n keeps them in a bottle. i guess the self-condemnation that comes along has to go with us forgiving ourselves first. God already forgave us when Jesus died for us n rose again, yet why do we sometimes live like we have no God?
sure, i have every right to be hurt. it's a natural human emotional reaction; we're nt cold-blooded after all. but if there's any part of our body that matters most to God above the rest, it is the heart. our inner vision, imagination... out of which flow the issues of life. we manifest the pictures we see on the inside. n i sure dun want this hurt to manifest in bitterness. i want to live out the abundant life Jesus said He had given me. i want to see my hands work His miracles, see my life touch n impact others. i want to see all my innermost desires FULFILLED.
behold the love of Jesus on the cross, n all our weaknesses just fall away. when we put what is natural into Jesus' hands, they become supernatural. i am SUPERNATURAL.
Monday, March 20, 2006
just for laughs... and some cheap thrill on my part. haha! see... faith picture works!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
cousins etc at shaun's wedding! tho the bride (wendy) n groom aren't in the pic. haha.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
the stupid devil's tactics nv change... like what pastor chin said, the devil has been around for so many thousand yrs yet he nv learns for all eternity! straight after meeting for prayer by pastor chin n coach angie, i started having this horrible toothache almost immediately... it was so bad that it gave me a headache as well. in the end i gave up shopping n went home, the extent of that pain! considering i'm a person with high pain threshold! that night i went to sleep early hoping to sleep off the pain, but my mouth n head throbbed so badly, it took me 3 hrs b4 i drifted off to sleep... during that 3 hrs of pain, it was so easy to juz moan n groan, but suddenly it came to me that the devil was trying to stop me from using my weapon against him! God gave us, His children, a powerful weapon! one which we use to fight from victory ground, a flaming double edged sword that guards us every which way! the more we use it, the more we enter His shalom and rest! PRAYING IN TONGUES. i can only tell it as it is for my own experience - i made my swollen painful mouth to pray in tongues, n tho it was only for a short while b4 i fell aslp, the nxt morning i woke up with the pain gone with only a bit of discomfort. my 60-fold manifested so quickly; God's ways are surely simple but powerful! what seems like foolishness of man is definitely wisdom of God... imagine the power of growing in the revelation of this gift, we become invincible!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
the life that i live is a spiritual one, a supernatural one. the challenges, the condemnation, the fears that i go thru frm time to time dosen't change my position at all. my place is Christ can never be shaken; i can nv take myself out frm His hand. i'm safe in the Ark, that in the midst of the storm that crashes n kills the world, the waves only lift me up to higher grounds.
Jesus, thank You that i am FREE to receive every blessing You died to give to me.
Monday, March 13, 2006
a love relationship with Jesus is like nothing else. i dun have to say anything, n He knows just what i need to hear, what will bring hope n peace to my heart n stir up faith within me. so many things going thru my mind n my heart... how i keep things hidden, yet He sends pple along my way to sow timely seeds into my life... really karah. like how coach angie just walked up n sat beside me before campus ydae, n just spoke to the very issues i had been juggling with. hadn't spoken with her for some time, n hearing her share was so precious. it dosen't matter where you are or what u're doing, what u have or dun have, bcos it dosen't stop God from blessing u. joseph was a slave, but the Lord was with him, n joseph prospered! blessings chase u down when u just put ur faith in the Lord. people with faith are different, they go out there with seemingly not much, n God causes people with seemingly everything to work for u! what can man do to me? with God Almighty in me, what can stop me from living the abundant life i desire?
Saturday, March 11, 2006
my dear brother actually got bumped by a car tdy... imagine how my heart dropped rcving his sms saying he's at sgh a&e. thank God for divine protection, he's mostly unscathed except for some scrapes on the elbows n under observation. a few of us waited at the hospital to see how he was, n it was quite a long wait till abt midnight, during which i cldn't help but rmbr abt aldwin, abt wing khum... which of cos was fear the stupid devil tried to stir up. it's times like this when u realise u can't do anything, but God is behind the scenes already. i mean, a lot of times when such stuff happens u may try to reason whose fault it was, but all that matters is the outcome, the miracle, the immense blessings that u see manifest. i truly believe in the importance of being conscious of His love, n taking spiritual authority over the situation, which i know he did. and it makes the whole lot of difference btwn life n death.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten Son, that whosoever believes shall not perish, but have everlasting life. - John 3:16
we all know this verse so well, yet a lot of times we miss out so often the very sole reason why God gave us Jesus. bcos He LOVED us, even before we knew Him. being conscious of His love places us in the security of His protection! such a SIMPLE truth. yet SO VERY POWERFUL. i want this truth to be embedded in my every cell. if i shld rmbr nothing else abt what the Bible says, i want to rmbr His love for me. tdy was my first time walking into a&e, n i NEVER wanna hear anything abt it or step into it again.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
HYUN BIN!!
my latest korean hottie craze... eat ur hearts out babes!
korean hottie!
so cute!!
hot look!
Sunday, March 05, 2006
i am heard
was very very very very angry this morning. so angry, that i thot in my heart how much i really hated him. hated him for everything i thot i had gotten over. i guess they only saw my anger when i left... but they din see the hurt. tried to hide but cldn't, ended up crying in church b4 service started. something i haven't done in a long time. tears of anger, of helplessness, of hurt.
perhaps i've become an expert in hiding the self i know. at that point i juz wanted to go on being bitter... but as much as i can hide frm my best frens, i cldn't hide frm God. i knew i loved God, but God showed me He loved me even more than i cld fathom. He reminded me that He's my Heavenly Father. nothing spectacular u know. no new revelations of His word or whatever. it was as though i had been gripping my heart so tight that it hurt, n He juz eased away my fingers n gave me a hug...
God's love is all i ever need to know, n believe. all i ever need to do is to come as i am to Him. hear His heart beat with His love for me. He is always with me, yet why do i keep pretending to live up to the standards i supposed He had set for my heart. my heart is not mine anymore, my heart is His. He wants to love me, romance me, take good care of me...
i m very blessed. sprit, soul, body.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
IT'S RAINING!
ALRITE ALRITE!! i make my most humblest confession!!! i'm still such a sucker for love stories!!! i still have raging hormones!!! this is why i promised myself dat i WOULD NOT watch "full house", nor indulge myself in the other korean dramas! *faint* i lost myself in my bummer-mode... too much time. now i'm like some ha-K auntie! the past few days i pia my sis' "full house" vcds day n night, forsaking food n sleep. n now i officially tink RAIN IS SOOOOOOO HOT! he's like so nt my type lah, eyes so small... haha. but he's so cute! n HOT! i mean, i watch his "it's raining" mtv n i'm like holding myself back frm rushing out to buy the cd! AHHH! he gets away frm being half-naked on stage n wearing those kinda clothes w/o looking grossly gay! i'm so sure if he comes to s'pore now, i'll be one of those screaming bimbos. maybe i shld go see if asiana or korean airlines recruiting... den maybe can meet him!! HAHA! (dun doubt me, i might juz do it. after all, working in cathay pacific got me to see stars like jay chou, edison, twins etc...)
anyway juz share something i tink is farnie... a few days ago, derek, sheryl n me were toking abt some ghost stuff over dinner. den dat night, i had a hard time getting to slp, nt bcos i was tinking of it. dunno why oso, i juz fell aslp ard 4.30am. n i dreamt so weird stuff! i dreamt abt some crematorium, den some vampire trying to bite me... the vamp was like SO close, on my neck already! i cld LITERALLY feel his breath can! n u noe wat was the nxt thing i did? i actually broke out praying in tongues... in the dream, den i became half-awake. n i juz felt the urge so strong to keep on praying in tongues...
i mean, i've made myself pray in tongues b4 when i wake up, but i felt this time it was different. u noe how in dreams u feel immobile n helpless? dats wat i felt, fear... cldn't move anything, except my tongue. i really praise God the Holy Spirit took over! i felt so much peace in knowing suddenly so much more strongly dat this life i lead is powered by the Holy Spirit! n how this power is released when i make my first instinct the praying in tongues! like how gideon tore apart the lion bcos the Holy Spirit came mightily on him, n in his challenge found food! the answer to anything i want to noe, the breakthrough i need, i have when i pray! i'm so amazed... at how God made His point across, quite with humour. haha.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
the days are passing me by... as i stay at home, n pia "full house" vcds! now i'm inspired to go n take korean language lessons... *chuckles* well, with so much time to myself, i've had more time to think abt things too. like how some things seriously dun matter (e.g. my grades... like, nbdy's gonna care lah.) much at all... n the things that i have always held impt, still are.
right now, ahead of me i see 2 choices. further studies or work. pa asked me once if i wanted to further, n when i answered no, it seemed to end the topic there n then. maybe i'm glad for that, cos i dun feel like furthering, or maybe i've convinced myself that the last 2 yrs... i want so much the "freedom" that earning my income gives. anyway, i'm enjoying my free time now... taking my time to do wat i've been wanting to do. until further notice.
for whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
Romans 8:29-30