Wednesday, July 27, 2005

But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you. - Romans 8:11

praise God for my brothers-in-Christ... it's really nice to juz hang out wif them n laugh abt the things they laugh abt. last night we had the last committee meeting for "Right Place, Right Time". a lot of things to be done, n all of us were physically tired... but angie wrapped up the night really well, reminding us yet again that God is still the One who multiplies the five loaves n two fishes we bring in our hands. hallelujah... great abundance of the riches we need lies in all that we bring to Him for multiplication! on the way home with jonathan, shawn, kester n han, we had so much laughs hearing han n kester talk abt their pasts... the way guys juz laugh n talk so loudly without any "restriction", so contagious n so... free-ing!! i was SOOOO tired, but i cldn't help but laugh along... n suddenly they juz shared with me abt romans 8:11, the verse above. it juz jolted me back to remembrance that if i had the full revelation of Christ's fullness in me, i can nv get tired! it isn't abt trying to get to that state of nt being able to feel tired, it's abt knowing Jesus for ourselves more n more n experiencing His divine nature made manifest! so timely for how i was feeling...

i love my committee... it's been only 2 mths since we started out, yet we've built such close bonds, kingdom friendships, brother n sister - hood... love them so much. God has certainly chosen n called us to be in the right place n right time, to work together, to experience His love n grace together afresh... i can't wait to see the grand finale, yet i can't bear to see all these preparations finally come to an end too...
posted at 11:20 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

pastor prince's msg during bs has been going thru my mind... i really thank God for him, that we have a pastor who preaches wat he hears frm God, not what he tinks God wants us to hear. the msg was so simple, yet so strong. PROFESSIONALISM vs REALITY. perhaps there are times when we feel we love God so much, that we just want to serve Him more n more... nothing wrong with that. but maybe i'm "guilty" as well, as we are all prone to, that i get caught up the works of the Lord, n forget to refresh myself n His Word. i end up like martha, loving the Lord so much, wanting to serve Him with the best... yet all Jesus desires is to see us like mary, sitting at His feet n just drawing from Him. i forget that Jesus has everything, IS everything! what can i offer Him that i have not FIRST RECEIVED from Him? truly He yearns to speak to us more than we want Him to... when we sit at His feet, looking into His eyes of grace, feeling His hands of love, hearing His voice of assurance... we find n draw the strength that we need to face the world. our challenges become like bread for us to feed on. circumstances melt into His awesome power.

i dun want to be a professional Christian, i want to be REAl. i want to be real abt Jesus, like He has been to me. every morning i wake up to new challenges, whether at work, at home or in even in serving... every morning i get to choose either to feel my physical tiredness, or to bank on His goodness n His promises. Jesus is real. every morning i pray for a relaxed day at work, that i won't get into trouble, that nothing will hinder me. i see my fellow interns having to stay back due to flight delays, immigration problems for arrivals, problems with tickets... but i see myself protected time n time again. He sets me to be in the right place at the right time, n i always see His goodness come thru for me. if this had happened just a couple of times, perhaps one can say it's coincidence. but i believe it's God-incident. i m definitely more blessed n above the rest, not bcos i'm betta than any, but bcos i choose Him n His ways. what can i boast in except in His faithfulness to me? i dun deserve anything, but therein lies His immense love for me!

when He becomes the reality in your life, then u just know that it dosen't matter what the world says abt u any more. there's nothing to prove n no one to impress. i just feel so strongly these words in my heart - other pple's words are merely opinions, but God's Word is DUNAMIS, power unto SOTERIA, deliverance, preservation, safety and salvation!

in His Word is liberty. i choose to be free.
posted at 8:41 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

it's exciting... i've been so busy, with so much to do, so many meetings to attend, so much to get ready for... but the poly event "Right Place, Right Time" is coming so soon already! 2 wks! God has been showing His immense grace, favour n wisdom thru each one of us, i can't wait to see Him show up at the event itself! it's gonna be awesome... lives touched n transformed. no one comes to the house of God, to the place of strength n fellowship, n leaves unchanged! truly, it will be the right place n the right time... that He sets us to be in that place to receive all of His love. i want to choose the good part, to sit at His feet, to rest in His presence knowing He is Almighty God n Saviour in everything.
posted at 11:42 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

i hate making mistakes. i hate the way i feel so lousy abt myself after that, knowing that i could have done better to prevent them. i hate tinking n tinking abt how pple will perceive me. perhaps i got complacent in the gifts n strengths that God has placed in me, in the praises of men.

but the Holy Spirit reminded me, if i continue to dwell on my mistakes, on how i've fallen short... it will only be a downward spiral. during cg, andy shared that our gifts n calling are frm God... it is by grace that He gives, n when He initiates, He completes n perfects! i m nt the one responsible in maintaining any of these gifts in my life! how is it possible that an Almighty God, my loving Abba, gives to me n then leaves me to myself to hold on to them n to do well? it was grace in the beginning, it is grace to the very end!

it's time i shed my outer shell n just admit it. i'm still human. i get tired, n it's alright. i make mistakes, n it's alright. i'm nt perfect, n it's alright. it's alright, bcos it's not by my works that i'm perfect. i live above my circumstances bcos His blood has qualified me, has made me righteous in the sight of God. i am made righteous by someone else's perfect work, that is Jesus! sure, i fall short, i sin, n i fail... but when i fall, i fall in the true ark, i'm still held safe in Jesus. He never condemned me, n i will never be separated frm His love.

i'm juz gonna bochup that irritating voice of accusation that comes along, n place weight nt in wat pple say abt me. it's a learning journey, but the Heavenly Potter still moulds me. so yeah... He makes everything beautiful.
posted at 8:43 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

i will not subscribe to the devil's package. i m a new creation in Christ, the old has passed away, the new has come! the simplicity of the good news of Christ, yet sometimes the hardest thing for most pple is to believe in such simplicity.
posted at 11:23 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

the five of us ~ fiona, nicholas, brian, eunice n me... 
posted at 12:53 AM

= eunice, me n fiona = 
posted at 12:51 AM

my God IS my life. there is no other way i would want my life to be... no way i want to go back in time n change any part of my life. for a brief moment tdy, i felt as though i stepped back in time to back when i was still discovering myself. looking back, i see God's hands so evident upon my life all the way... how He moulds n everything becomes so beautiful, how i can expect my future to be even more beuatiful n glorious! so many things change as time goes by, but His love for me will never change, never waver, never fail... i am SEALED with His Holy Spirit, with the Father's name, with His promises... i want no other way but HIS ALONE.
posted at 12:30 AM