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=spiritual food=
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Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Thursday, June 30, 2005
been so privileged n blessed serving in the poly event.. can't wait for the wonderful manifestation of His presence that will transform lives forever! i've built such beautiful kingdom friendships, so precious n so dear... God is really gd. He sees my desires, my innermost whispers that i nv voice out, n He brings them forth in such a beautiful manner! i feel physically so tired, but He truly refreshes me with His love... i yearn so much more of Him!
there were 2 pax checking in at my counter, lesbian couple lah, one s'porean one chinese who's going hkg. the "male" s'porean was so hostile. her partner had excess baggage so i said she had to pay or repack, n she yelled at me so loud 2 rows of counters cld hear her... scolded me in hokkien vulgarities... mocked me by kneeling to me... yelled for my supervisor... slammed her baggage on my baggage belt... threatened me yada yada... long story man. she insulted me in front of so many passengers n used such vulgarities together with my name (in full display on my nametag), yet all i cld do was just keep quiet, smile n apologise. in the end she took pictures of our signage n of the counter, i suppose to lodge a complaint. hur.
i was tinking... no one in the whole wide world has ever scolded me such horrible things, prob cos i nt so evil oso. but to hear it frm a complete stranger, scolding me for something i'm nt responsible for... thoughts that ran through my head were like, "who does she tink she is, insulting a child of God? how can His daughter be put through such indignation? she has no right!" oooh, but His love n grace poured through n filled me with such a rush...
What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? ... Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
my gosh... i just felt, yeah, she has no right n she does nt deserve to be forgiven after all that she said n did. yet, knowing that my Heavenly Father is supporting me, rooting for me, backing me up with all the heavens... being so conscious of His love n grace towards me first, enabled me to show the same towards her n just see her in God's eyes... so in need of the One who loves her w/o conditions. the same way, i had no right, n deserved nothing of my own... but Jesus gave His life for me simply bcos He loves me! if the Son of God forgave me, how can i nt forgive another? all the accusations she brought against me, i had the choice of either dwelling on them n making myself feel bitter n angry, or simply shut the stupid devil out n meditate on His promise to love me to the end of time! i praise God the Holy Spirit enabled me where i cldn't...
my emotions are a result of what i believe. i want to believe His TRUTH. His GOOD NEWS. that the Son came to die for us while we were still in our sins, n was risen that we may forevermore dwell in His presence as righteous! i cannot love another until i know how much He loves me... Lord, all i want is more of You!
God nv fails to surprise me with His goodness every single day... i woke up tdy feeling tired actually, frm work. every morning wake up 6.30am n go work for almost 11hrs... sometimes bcos go church i can spend up to 15hrs outside. but somehow i knew this feeling of lethergy does not have any right to be in the temple of the Holy Spirit. just a groan will reach the throne! INDEED!
i rushed for my bus to work this morning, it was VERY crowded. i managed to squeeze in at the door, cos i din want to be late. at the nxt stop, the door opened for passengers to get on (i dunno why the bus driver did dat when there was obviously NO MORE SPACE...) n the door actually clamped onto my left big toe. my gosh, the pressure was getting SO HARD n i din want my toe to get twisted off or something, so i quickly yanked it out. there i saw a huge flap of skin revealing a gaping wound... RIGHT. at dat moment, i prayed that it wldn't bleed n dat it'd heal supernaturally. but as i finally got a seat nearing the airport, i looked to see my wound DRIPPING blood. haha... apparently my specific prayer did not manifest.
BUT HOLD ON. later i got to office n kind souls like ryna n marianne (even "selena". haha...) helped dressed my wound into a big lump of gauze n surgical tape. n i got so much favour with my supervisor, linda (whom i usually quite... afraid of?) ! in the end i din hafta dress into uniform cos i cldn't wear court shoes, so juz wear my t-shirt n berms sit in aircon office whole day do ticket stats! no doubt it involves a lot of concentration, but it's so much more relaxed! i feel so rested tdy, dun hafta do OT, dun feel physically tired frm walking n lugging baggages! plus, i was saved frm quite a lot of trouble too... my fellow intern, san ying, tok over the arrival duty i was initially supposed to do, n there were major problems regarding some vip, made her damn frustrated. nt dat it's my fault she suffered, but i see God's hand protecting me even frm mental stress!
i do pray for acceleration of healing for my toe, but prob for the nxt few days i'll be doing light duties in the office. wat a rest God has prepared for me! my wound is quite deep, but i don't feel much pain most of the time (of cos i'm nt gonna take the yard n squeeze into court shoes now!). to the outsider, it might seem like, "aye, why God din answer my prayer? dosen't He want me to be healed now? why so suay i kena injured on a day i tell Him i'm tired?" but we in our limitedness cannot see God in His omniscience! He sees our lives outside of time, frm the beginning to the end, n has ALREADY planned and called us into His goodness! we see the immediate circumstances, but He is bringing along the ABUNDANCE of wat we need! He dosen't mean for me to suffer pain, but wateva the devil has planned for evil, God turns the situation ard for GOOD for me!
hallelujah... it might seem like a small matter, but i do feel like i need the rest frm working so many hrs per week... God saw my need, n He mapped it out w/o me being shortchanged! n He gave me a bonus, i actually kinda miss my work at the counter! haha. ironic. i do enjoy my job... praise God. but DEFINITELY, God has more in store for me... n i'm nt gonna let juz any stupid lie of the devil trick me out of receiving my FULL INHERITANCE!
"I have loved you with an EVERLASTING LOVE." if not for His promise, life wld be meaningless, without purpose, without hope. it dosen't matter wat pple have said, are saying, or going to say abt me... even if they are good. it's so impt that we as children of God noe that our identity is not something we find, but it is something we have already OBTAINED in Christ. nothing we do can add more or reduce our value in God's eyes. what can we give that God has not already given us first?
many a times i guess we fall back into self-efforts, esp when we want something so very badly... we wonder why things aren't going our way, or why the things we've asked for so long have not come to pass. it's a vicious n cunning cycle that we get lured into, finally resulting in self-condemnation. the MINISTRY OF DEATH. Jesus is right here holding our hands, yet why do we shut our eyes to see His goodness n willingness to bless us? His heart calls out to ours, the MINISTRY OF THE SPIRIT, the MINISTRY OF LIFE. right here in us. the Holy Spirit rests in each n every single one of His sons n daughters, is this not proof enough that OUR PORTION WILL NEVER BE TAKEN AWAY from us? The Life-giver's very life is intertwined with our own... how can we not believe that we receive ALL that we dream of?
if it is not my portion, it will never be mine. yet the Lord adds blessings without any sorrow... i know my portion that i ask from Him will never be taken away from me. it is mine to take n mine to fulfill. i want to wait for His timing, bcos He makes ALL things beautiful it its own time. GOD IS GOOD, n His mercies endure forever.
ONLY by His grace. SUFFICIENT in His grace. WHOLE through His grace.
yingling, me n grace!
fellow tanzanites!
all dressed up for japanese night!
tanzanites!
we like to MOVE IT!
i hate politics. i hate talking behind pple's backs. i wonder how i can still face such frustration when the fullness of God's grace is in me! yet the Holy Spirit reminds me that the overflow of grace to others is NEVER by my self-efforts... i cannot try to be like Jesus, bcos my flesh is weak. sure i do fall back into sin here n there, but my position before the Heavenly Father is that of a PERFECTLY cleansed n forgiven child! dosen't matter if pple accuse me, backstab me, hate me, gossip abt me... i dun hafta prove myself to them at all. what they tink dosen't matter a single bit! i only wanna hear my Father's words of love towards me...
been so privileged n blessed serving in the poly event.. can't wait for the wonderful manifestation of His presence that will transform lives forever! i've built such beautiful kingdom friendships, so precious n so dear... God is really gd. He sees my desires, my innermost whispers that i nv voice out, n He brings them forth in such a beautiful manner! i feel physically so tired, but He truly refreshes me with His love... i yearn so much more of Him!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
hah. God's grace NEVER flowed so strongly n powerfully through me as i felt it did tdy... it was really CRUNCH time, where the rubber-meets-the-road kinda situation. so apt, after hearing deaconness lian preach at bs ydae abt the most impt first piece of the armour of God - TRUTH. what do i really believe in times of crises?
there were 2 pax checking in at my counter, lesbian couple lah, one s'porean one chinese who's going hkg. the "male" s'porean was so hostile. her partner had excess baggage so i said she had to pay or repack, n she yelled at me so loud 2 rows of counters cld hear her... scolded me in hokkien vulgarities... mocked me by kneeling to me... yelled for my supervisor... slammed her baggage on my baggage belt... threatened me yada yada... long story man. she insulted me in front of so many passengers n used such vulgarities together with my name (in full display on my nametag), yet all i cld do was just keep quiet, smile n apologise. in the end she took pictures of our signage n of the counter, i suppose to lodge a complaint. hur.
i was tinking... no one in the whole wide world has ever scolded me such horrible things, prob cos i nt so evil oso. but to hear it frm a complete stranger, scolding me for something i'm nt responsible for... thoughts that ran through my head were like, "who does she tink she is, insulting a child of God? how can His daughter be put through such indignation? she has no right!" oooh, but His love n grace poured through n filled me with such a rush...
What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? ... Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
my gosh... i just felt, yeah, she has no right n she does nt deserve to be forgiven after all that she said n did. yet, knowing that my Heavenly Father is supporting me, rooting for me, backing me up with all the heavens... being so conscious of His love n grace towards me first, enabled me to show the same towards her n just see her in God's eyes... so in need of the One who loves her w/o conditions. the same way, i had no right, n deserved nothing of my own... but Jesus gave His life for me simply bcos He loves me! if the Son of God forgave me, how can i nt forgive another? all the accusations she brought against me, i had the choice of either dwelling on them n making myself feel bitter n angry, or simply shut the stupid devil out n meditate on His promise to love me to the end of time! i praise God the Holy Spirit enabled me where i cldn't...
my emotions are a result of what i believe. i want to believe His TRUTH. His GOOD NEWS. that the Son came to die for us while we were still in our sins, n was risen that we may forevermore dwell in His presence as righteous! i cannot love another until i know how much He loves me... Lord, all i want is more of You!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called accordng to His purpose." Romans 8:28
God nv fails to surprise me with His goodness every single day... i woke up tdy feeling tired actually, frm work. every morning wake up 6.30am n go work for almost 11hrs... sometimes bcos go church i can spend up to 15hrs outside. but somehow i knew this feeling of lethergy does not have any right to be in the temple of the Holy Spirit. just a groan will reach the throne! INDEED!
i rushed for my bus to work this morning, it was VERY crowded. i managed to squeeze in at the door, cos i din want to be late. at the nxt stop, the door opened for passengers to get on (i dunno why the bus driver did dat when there was obviously NO MORE SPACE...) n the door actually clamped onto my left big toe. my gosh, the pressure was getting SO HARD n i din want my toe to get twisted off or something, so i quickly yanked it out. there i saw a huge flap of skin revealing a gaping wound... RIGHT. at dat moment, i prayed that it wldn't bleed n dat it'd heal supernaturally. but as i finally got a seat nearing the airport, i looked to see my wound DRIPPING blood. haha... apparently my specific prayer did not manifest.
BUT HOLD ON. later i got to office n kind souls like ryna n marianne (even "selena". haha...) helped dressed my wound into a big lump of gauze n surgical tape. n i got so much favour with my supervisor, linda (whom i usually quite... afraid of?) ! in the end i din hafta dress into uniform cos i cldn't wear court shoes, so juz wear my t-shirt n berms sit in aircon office whole day do ticket stats! no doubt it involves a lot of concentration, but it's so much more relaxed! i feel so rested tdy, dun hafta do OT, dun feel physically tired frm walking n lugging baggages! plus, i was saved frm quite a lot of trouble too... my fellow intern, san ying, tok over the arrival duty i was initially supposed to do, n there were major problems regarding some vip, made her damn frustrated. nt dat it's my fault she suffered, but i see God's hand protecting me even frm mental stress!
i do pray for acceleration of healing for my toe, but prob for the nxt few days i'll be doing light duties in the office. wat a rest God has prepared for me! my wound is quite deep, but i don't feel much pain most of the time (of cos i'm nt gonna take the yard n squeeze into court shoes now!). to the outsider, it might seem like, "aye, why God din answer my prayer? dosen't He want me to be healed now? why so suay i kena injured on a day i tell Him i'm tired?" but we in our limitedness cannot see God in His omniscience! He sees our lives outside of time, frm the beginning to the end, n has ALREADY planned and called us into His goodness! we see the immediate circumstances, but He is bringing along the ABUNDANCE of wat we need! He dosen't mean for me to suffer pain, but wateva the devil has planned for evil, God turns the situation ard for GOOD for me!
hallelujah... it might seem like a small matter, but i do feel like i need the rest frm working so many hrs per week... God saw my need, n He mapped it out w/o me being shortchanged! n He gave me a bonus, i actually kinda miss my work at the counter! haha. ironic. i do enjoy my job... praise God. but DEFINITELY, God has more in store for me... n i'm nt gonna let juz any stupid lie of the devil trick me out of receiving my FULL INHERITANCE!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
i am tired... but i'm so SATISFIED. working 6 days wk now, 10hrs a day for the next 5 wks... quite xiong actually, but really depending only on His grace. MORE THAN ENOUGH. hallelujah.
"I have loved you with an EVERLASTING LOVE." if not for His promise, life wld be meaningless, without purpose, without hope. it dosen't matter wat pple have said, are saying, or going to say abt me... even if they are good. it's so impt that we as children of God noe that our identity is not something we find, but it is something we have already OBTAINED in Christ. nothing we do can add more or reduce our value in God's eyes. what can we give that God has not already given us first?
many a times i guess we fall back into self-efforts, esp when we want something so very badly... we wonder why things aren't going our way, or why the things we've asked for so long have not come to pass. it's a vicious n cunning cycle that we get lured into, finally resulting in self-condemnation. the MINISTRY OF DEATH. Jesus is right here holding our hands, yet why do we shut our eyes to see His goodness n willingness to bless us? His heart calls out to ours, the MINISTRY OF THE SPIRIT, the MINISTRY OF LIFE. right here in us. the Holy Spirit rests in each n every single one of His sons n daughters, is this not proof enough that OUR PORTION WILL NEVER BE TAKEN AWAY from us? The Life-giver's very life is intertwined with our own... how can we not believe that we receive ALL that we dream of?
if it is not my portion, it will never be mine. yet the Lord adds blessings without any sorrow... i know my portion that i ask from Him will never be taken away from me. it is mine to take n mine to fulfill. i want to wait for His timing, bcos He makes ALL things beautiful it its own time. GOD IS GOOD, n His mercies endure forever.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Holy God in love became
Perfect Man to bear my blame
on the cross He took my sin
by His death i live again
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
how the Spirit is so willing to give, the soul is so hungry for more, yet the body seems to get tired... there are things i seem to hold so impt, so close to my heart, that others may not... "what do u want ultimately?" i noe this "work" is all that matters to me, but wise counsel says to set my priorities. i got confused, maybe. but i dun care, i only want to do what gives me the most joy n fulfillment. i have nothing to prove n no one to prove to. Jesus is my Reward. i dun wanna hear n believe only what others say. i wanna hear His voice of reassurance for me, see His face looking lovingly at me. who is he who condemns? it is Christ who was crucified! n is even at the Father's right hand!
ONLY by His grace. SUFFICIENT in His grace. WHOLE through His grace.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
times of refreshing
here in Your presence
no greater blessing
than being with You
my soul is restored
my mind is renewed
there's no greater joy Lord
than being with You
Saturday, June 11, 2005
GOD IS FAITHFUL
bengen camp has come n gone... but the reaping n the benefits are keeping on! God showed Himself up so tangibily, so intimately n so mightily... He reached out to every need n every desire, as many as those who came with them. i was so trememndously ministered by the camp, n even when i thot it had ended, God spoke to me thru a beloved sister on the way home, words that i had needed n desired to hear, words that confirmed n reassured me, words that cld have only come from Him alone.
He is truly faithful. i asked for this much, yet He gave me TRULY EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY ALL that i had dared to even ask or dream of! nothing came by self-effort, only God's grace cld have accomplished in me what i had been put on stage for. God truly loves His children, God TRULY MADLY DEEPLY loves His daughter... me. what great love a father has for his child, if i ask Him for bread, will He give me stone? NO WAY. He withholds nothing good from His children, but desires to prosper them! all i had to do was to bring as many vessels as i wanted to Him, n He just kept filling n filling them to overflowing with His annointing oil, His oil of gladness!
even if nbdy rmbrs anything, i only know that HE IS FAITHFUL to fulfill what He has promised. totally. His glory in me, His favour upon me, His wisdom for me is UNDENIABLE. n i only need to hear it frm Him.
yingling, me n grace!
fellow tanzanites!
all dressed up for japanese night!
tanzanites!
we like to MOVE IT!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
BenGen Camp
Singled Out!
"Of Benjamin he said: "The beloved of the Lord shall dwell in safety by Him, who shelters him all the day long; and he shall dwell between his shoulders." - Deuteronomy 33:12
"...Benjamin's portion was five times as much as anyone else's..." - Genesis 43:34
i'm leaving for the BenGen Camp tmrw morning... i can't wait!!! FIVE TIMES more for this GRACE generation! God is moving mightily in this camp! lives will be transformed permanently, dreams be made real, and miracles be made manifest! HALLELUJAH! God is GOOD!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
like the sun that rises up every day
You are so faithful
dear Lord You are faithful
like the rain that You bring
and every breath that i breathe
You are so faithful oh Lord
i see the cross and the price You had to pay
i see the blood that washed my sins away
in the midst of storm
through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful...
when the stars refuse to shine
and time is no more
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful oh Lord
He has given me a future and a hope, a peace and a joy... that no one can take away.
for whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
Romans 8:29-30