Friday, February 25, 2005

juz came hme frm a meeting wif the cathay pacific airways' airport services manager... yup for those who dun noe, i got into cathay pacific airways for my attachment!! yayyy... wat i always wanted. i'll be at the airport doing customer services, so cool!! sumore is 8:30am-6pm mon-fri job!!! no need to miss church!!!! :D all the managers dat i've met, dey're all so kind, friendly n approachable. i haf such a gd feeling abt my attachment! it's really been God's supernatural favour n grace upon me! i only sent my resume to 3 companies, got 2 interviews n secured a placement the nxt day wif cathay pacific! others haf sent to 10-20 companies n still nt yet secured one... of cos i haf nothing to boast, except in the Lord! He's done everything for me, how can i nt be victorious! all i need to do is rest in His divine love! it is His grace dat led me there, it is also His grace dat grants me my leave no qns asked frm the 6-10 june for the singles' camp AMEN!! HALLELUJAH!! His hand of favour n glory is upon me, SHARMAINE! words aren't enuff to describe His love for me... how He's always kept me n my family in divine health n prosperity. so many of us noe dat God can do miracles, but do we believe HE WILL? HE WILL simply bcos He loves us wif an everlasting love! He gave His only Son to die for me, SURELY He releases all the riches of heaven into my life! He dosen't question our love bcos He simply dosen't haf a list of criteria for us, why shld be question His love n willingness to bless us?? i wanna rcv all dat He has for me, nothing less!!! :)
posted at 5:43 PM

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

got really angry again tdy wif some pple... i realise i've been on this streak lately, n i dun like it. i noe it's me who chooses to get angry, to look to human efforts. sometimes i wanna rant my feelings to pple, n i guess i do... n den i get so guilty, like, how can me being a Christian be so angry n intolerant? then the Holy Spirit reminds me of my righteousness in Christ... not dat i'm always doing right juz bcos i belong to Christ, even though i get angry n i vent it. i'm righteous bcos Jesus died for my sins, bcos His blood has bought my forgiveness... my righteousness is based on Jesus' righteousness! it dosen't give me an excuse, but i see how Jesus loves me, n loves them... n i dun tink such petty stuff matters anymore... after all, if anyone has the right to get angry, Jesus does, but He dosen't. we dun haf the right, but we do... o how vast the grace of God!

hmm... tdy got a call asking me if i wld like to help out in the d.a.r.e pre-service... i kinda agreed hesitantly. cos i din feel like i was up to it. i din feel it was 'me' to do such 'rah-rah' stuff... but i accepted, bcos i so wanted to serve. i noe God pours His annointing oil on me, i noe it's gonna be all of Jesus n none of me... i noe His hand still holds mine, even as i step out of my comfort zone. i'm a new creation, old things have passed away, behold He makes all things new! ain't it juz so awesome, dat God empowers us in His grace to do the tings He's called us to do, yet He lets us take all the glory? i'm so honoured to be able to serve, n i noe it's gonna be so blessed, bcos His hand is on me. thank You Lord, dat ur love stretches across the heavens, down to earth, for me...
posted at 8:57 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

i simply dun understand why i haf to suffer for others' tardy attitude... i'm irritated, i'm angry... again. i hate feeling like this, i hate becoming someone so horrible. hai. but then i'm reminded of Jesus' love for me. His loving hands holding my cheeks, telling me He is well-pleased with me. not bcos of wat i m, but WHOSE i m. i belong to Jesus, i belong to God my Father. it dosen't matter how see myself. God sees me righteous in Jesus. Jesus sees me as His beloved. His love maintains me, upholds me, preserves me... when i see His love, i noe it's juz impossible for me to be angry anymore. i'm still human, but i'm also still the favoured one of God, eternally forgiven, washed by His precious blood. thank You Lord.
posted at 2:53 AM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

i'm saddened by wat i juz read on my cousin's blog... she had kept her blog frm us, n i din purposely go find. it juz came across. i've been quite upset dat she hasn't been joining our family gatherings much ever since she joined her church. but now she labels us as "antinomians", behind our backs n to everyone else... she dosen't even see us as her cousins, her family... dat she feels we're juz like wat others say we are. how she can't stand the sight of us sinning n sinning, how we're so wrong in tinking "once forgiven, forever forgiven"... :"( i love her very much, n i believe wat i feel now is only a minute fraction of how Jesus muz be feeling, dat dey see Him as so petty, so unforgiving, so high-n-mighty dat He dosen't love us when we fail... the Jesus i noe is EVER-LOVING, EVER-GRACEFUL... He shed His blood for the forgiveness of our sins! He did a perfect n complete work at the cross to remove my past, present, n future sins! how can He shed His blood for our forgiveness n yet still not forgive us now when we fall short? He wld be mocking His own work! Jesus, in all His might, in all His glory, has given Himself so dat He can gather us back into His loving arms... He will nv leave us nor forsake us, nor judge us according to our own righteousness anymore, but according to His righteousness! according to His immense love for us! but wateva i feel abt her or her bro dosen't matter, all i noe is Jesus loves them so much more than i love them, n He will touch their hearts... His truth will overshine the lies they've been hearing, the bad reports they've been given... the veil will be removed, n out of this a GLORIOUS testimony will emerge! HALLELUJAH!
posted at 1:39 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

i only need Jesus. i only need to sit at His feet n hear His Word. i only need to look to Him n walk on water. i only need to hand Him my 5 loaves n 2 fishes n He will feed the 5000 wif 12 basketfuls left over. i only need to believe n the dead will arise. i only need to rest, rejoice, n give praise... n He will cause the double portion increase in my life! God's hand in my life is so evident... i cannot but believe.
posted at 10:56 PM