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Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
"He who believes in the Son has everlasting life..." - John 3:36
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me has everlasting life. I am the bread of life." - John 6:47-48
"He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water." - John 7:38
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also, and greater things than these will he do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it." - John 14:12-14
Jesus said to her," I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?"
Yes, Lord, I believe. I am "She who believes"!
in ME is the great inheritance that flows with milk n honey. in ME is the wisdom that created the heavens n the earth. in ME is the joy that gives me all strength. in ME is the perfect shalom peace that surpasses all understanding. in ME is the power to heal multitudes. in ME is the GREATEST LOVE that gave Himself up to be stripped naked, to have His flesh torn apart, to suffer the fiery judgement of our sins n to be separated from His Heavenly Father... in ME is JESUS CHRIST, Son of the Living God. how can i insult such a perfect work n reject such a perfect love? how can i not reign in life when He has already won the victory for me?
my Father loves me.
actually b4 i ask these questions i guess i already noe the answers... Jesus nv commanded me to be like Him. this is the same scenario i faced not long ago, n i got reminded... Jesus said to me,"Let Me love you... don't worry abt loving that person. let me reign in your heart first! you are not Me, so don't keep trying to be! let Me love him, and let Me love you... you will find the love to love him with when you are filled with My love for you!" perhaps yet again i'm trying too hard... using my self-efforts to create results for the unspoken expectations i've formed towards pple. that's why i am disappointed, hurt, angry... i am. i really am. but u noe wat, i thank God... bcos despite my wretchedness, despite the pple ard me... my Abba sees my situations, my Abba sees wat i've been going thru n feels wat i've been feeling, my Abba sees ME, n He still loves ME sooo much! yeah, i do miss the times i cld juz pour my heart out to a loved one, but i've come to learn that man will disappoint. but hope in Him will NEVER disappoint! i hafta keep learning to look to Him. it is not nonchalance, it is trust in the One who can n who will, simply bcos He loves me.
"For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
- Romans 8:38-39
AMEN.
after service i brought some of care grp pple to chinatown to eat at auntie connie's stall... there was me, n ailing, wendy, melanie, zixin, fredrik, kester, paul, edwin, ching hei, john n jeremy... 12 of us (hoi... 12 disciples! haha. ok lame.). we had 8 courses of yummy food! but i tink nt enuf to go round ah. i juz turn my eyes a while only, the nxt thing i knew, all the fried rice gone liao. these guys sure attack fast... well, we oso had soft shell crabs, fried pig intestines etc... *drool* auntie connie n uncle albert were so nice to prepare the table n food for us! after dat we went walking ard chinatown. it's actually quite fun, walking the lively streets! we went to eat again k! ate durian, then we went to eat "ah balling"... oh man. n i ate ice cream oso... my gosh. juz my definition of a fun day out... juz eat n eat! hah. i absolutely adore care grp, simply bcos we share the same love of Jesus, fun n glorious food (w/o tinking abt getting fat or wateva, cos is sanctified... haha.)!! sure got more to come! haha...
where i cannot love others perfectly, where others cannot love me perfectly, JESUS loves ME perfectly... where i cannot bring myself to care, where others cannot care enough for me, JESUS cares for ME perfectly...
"He who believes in the Son has everlasting life..." - John 3:36
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me has everlasting life. I am the bread of life." - John 6:47-48
"He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water." - John 7:38
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also, and greater things than these will he do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it." - John 14:12-14
Jesus said to her," I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?"
Yes, Lord, I believe. I am "She who believes"!
in ME is the great inheritance that flows with milk n honey. in ME is the wisdom that created the heavens n the earth. in ME is the joy that gives me all strength. in ME is the perfect shalom peace that surpasses all understanding. in ME is the power to heal multitudes. in ME is the GREATEST LOVE that gave Himself up to be stripped naked, to have His flesh torn apart, to suffer the fiery judgement of our sins n to be separated from His Heavenly Father... in ME is JESUS CHRIST, Son of the Living God. how can i insult such a perfect work n reject such a perfect love? how can i not reign in life when He has already won the victory for me?
my Father loves me.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
i juz wanna be myself. like wat i like, wear wat i wear, talk how i talk (n when i want to). i dun hafta change myself to blend in, even if i stick out. i'm beginning to tink maybe i lost a bit of myself in the process, such dat i'm kinda confused abt myself now. but this is ME! i mean, this is the result of the journey dat i took, dat i'm undergoing... i dun hafta pretend to God, neither do i hafta pretend to men. if God made me grow like ths, i'm nt gonna deny it... i juz wanna drop dat grown-up facade n live like a child! live carefree n enjoy my work n play! but then again looking back, i've always been a grown-up kid... when did i grow up? wateva. i juz wanna enjoy His love story with me... i'm nt whoever pple tink i m, i m who He sees me! n He is the truth.
Monday, January 17, 2005
juz came back frm chinatown hanging out wif some of the care grp pple - ailing, zixi, denise n kevin, fredrik, zixin n his bro ziming... dey ate at auntie connie's stall again n apparently dey really enjoyed the food. well i've been eating it since young, i noe it's gd, but maybe used to it liao... heh. but i'm so grateful to auntie connie, cos she gave them a huge discount bcos of me! aww... haha. after dat we went walking ard the street market again... zixin, ziming, fredrik n me were kinda ahead of the rest, so we went to get ice cream. zixin treat me to a choc chip cone again, so nice of him... actually i wanted to pay for my own, cos i din wanna take advantage of his generosity, but... so difficult for me to insist...? THEN...!!!!!!! *sob* i haven lick 10x the whole scoop fell to the floor!!! so paiseh! den some stall owner quickly helped me clear it up, i din even haf a chance to reminisce! hahaha... i was like whining dat i was so sad... like, i felt so bad cos i din pay for dat ice cream cone n it went to waste! zixin n fredrik were like, get another one lor... n i was like, nvm lah! so paiseh already still wanna get another one, omigawd! but fredrik pushed thru the literally surgin crowd back to the ice cream stall n bought me another one! by the time i managed to squeeze thru to him, i saw the auntie scooping a DOUBLE SCOOP CHOC CHIP CONE!!! i was like, ??? i wanted to pay but fredrik insisted on paying for me... i was quite baffled, n i asked why he bought me a double scoop so big?!?! n u noe wat he replied... he said, "bcos whenever u lose something, God will always give u back double portion..." i was like, "woww...." i was so touched by fredrik's SO generous gesture... he din haf to leh! i noe he as ns-man, $ quite precious, but he still chose to bless me in a way i find so much! =") so touched leh... it may seem like nothing to other pple, but prob no one noes how much it cheered me up. i was miserable on the inside, n he cared at the right moment. plus i juz adore ice cream! not dat i got crush on him or wateva lah, my gosh. he's a wonderful brother, n it's fun hanging out wif him. i noe my face din look happy, i tried... but. well. anyway, he bothered to care... so many times perhaps we tink abt how to bless pple in big ways like gifts etc, but most of the time it's dat little sincere touch of care n concern dat really melts the heart. why i'm telling all these, is perhaps juz to share, dat dun despise any gesture of concern u may tink is too small, cos u nv noe how much u've encouraged dat person wif a simple act of love... after all, Jesus said the greatest of all is love. i juz wanna enjoy His love for me, n to bless others with the overflow of His love in my life! amen.
Friday, January 14, 2005
i haven't gotten so angry as i did today in a long, long time... really. so angry dat i was literally fuming inside. stupid devil! aargh. sometimes i wonder when i'd changed to become so un-magnanimous, so impatient, so intolerant. or did i? do i haf reason to feel angry? of cos i oso noe, no one has the power to make me angry except myself.. but... i juz dun understand how people can tink they're right when they're obviously in the wrong?!?! how issit they can be so irresponsible, so insensitive, so selfish, so self-centred?!?! i really dun tink i'm the angry kinda person, n i really wish i cld be juz like Jesus esp in such situations... yet the pple ard me are telling me to be real with my feelings. i was nv like this! why issit now i face such conflict w/in me? how do i love when i want to vent my anger?
actually b4 i ask these questions i guess i already noe the answers... Jesus nv commanded me to be like Him. this is the same scenario i faced not long ago, n i got reminded... Jesus said to me,"Let Me love you... don't worry abt loving that person. let me reign in your heart first! you are not Me, so don't keep trying to be! let Me love him, and let Me love you... you will find the love to love him with when you are filled with My love for you!" perhaps yet again i'm trying too hard... using my self-efforts to create results for the unspoken expectations i've formed towards pple. that's why i am disappointed, hurt, angry... i am. i really am. but u noe wat, i thank God... bcos despite my wretchedness, despite the pple ard me... my Abba sees my situations, my Abba sees wat i've been going thru n feels wat i've been feeling, my Abba sees ME, n He still loves ME sooo much! yeah, i do miss the times i cld juz pour my heart out to a loved one, but i've come to learn that man will disappoint. but hope in Him will NEVER disappoint! i hafta keep learning to look to Him. it is not nonchalance, it is trust in the One who can n who will, simply bcos He loves me.
"For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
- Romans 8:38-39
AMEN.
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
my heart still skips a beat... my breath still gets caught in my chest... i thot i let go. why then am i still stuck in this? Abba, i will not allow myself to be so narrow-minded! i will not settle for anything less than Heaven's best! Lord, help me let u reign in my heart... help me let go. expand my capacity to noe u so much more intimately Lord...
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
i got damn pissed tdy. actually i've been feeling like this the past few days... nt all the time, but here n there... all cos of projects. i really enjoy the projects on hand, seriously... i can even tolerate freeloaders. wat i CANNOT stand are freeloaders who dun do work but act like dey're doing a lot of work n tok big n say behind our backs dat dey dun like wat we do!! if dey quietly dun do work i dun mind cos i noe i can do the work, n i make sure the project is done well... maybe a lot of pride going on in me here... but i REALLY dun see the point why u want to take the diploma in the first place if u dun wanna cum for lects n tutorials... n i seriously dun believe u can noe how to do projects if u dun attend them! argh!!!!! i vented my anger, revealed a lot wat i usually dun say out... to a couple of close frens lah, nt to the ones i'm toking abt. i dun understand why i've been so short-tempered n impatient these days, n maybe even narrow-minded. i guess even for close frens, there comes a point in time where u get to noe the person so well, dat u take her for granted n form unspoken expectations... then when dey're nt met, i get disappointed or angry. in the beginning u pick out the gd qualities, then gradually start finding faults... hai. human nature. thank You Jesus... dat forgiveness is found in You. thank You Lord, dat i'm still only human, dat u are my Saviour. thank You Lord, dat there is no more condemnation in You... dat u love me despite my shortcomings. amen.
Monday, January 10, 2005
wow... had a awesome time tdy! went for 3rd service... pastor prince was preaching frm the Bible abt the tsunami, how Jesus' prophecy has come to pass... indeed we are the end-time generation, n the devil is trying to cause fear in the hearts of men, but praise God, Jesus has already crushed His head n won the victory for us! even in such times of trouble, He is the lifter of our heads! i can rejoice bcos my redemption draws near!
after service i brought some of care grp pple to chinatown to eat at auntie connie's stall... there was me, n ailing, wendy, melanie, zixin, fredrik, kester, paul, edwin, ching hei, john n jeremy... 12 of us (hoi... 12 disciples! haha. ok lame.). we had 8 courses of yummy food! but i tink nt enuf to go round ah. i juz turn my eyes a while only, the nxt thing i knew, all the fried rice gone liao. these guys sure attack fast... well, we oso had soft shell crabs, fried pig intestines etc... *drool* auntie connie n uncle albert were so nice to prepare the table n food for us! after dat we went walking ard chinatown. it's actually quite fun, walking the lively streets! we went to eat again k! ate durian, then we went to eat "ah balling"... oh man. n i ate ice cream oso... my gosh. juz my definition of a fun day out... juz eat n eat! hah. i absolutely adore care grp, simply bcos we share the same love of Jesus, fun n glorious food (w/o tinking abt getting fat or wateva, cos is sanctified... haha.)!! sure got more to come! haha...
Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005
a new year is here... new hopes, new expectations, new dreams, n a much greater portion n annointing frm my Heavenly Father! i juz noe this year will be an amazing year for me... this year of God's superabundance of His favour upon me! i will see my requests manifest in my life, n my life will be a glorious testimony unto His name amen!
it may seem like i keep saying these stuff over n over, as tho' i'm trying to convince myself or something... but NO. no matter the circumstances ard me, i noe Jesus has lifted me above all of them. i believe bcos i haf personally experienced His unique love towards me. Jesus has NEVER EVER let me down... when i felt down, insignificant, helpless, lonely... He'd remind me wif such a soft, gentle yet strongly passionate whisper deep down in my heart,"You are my beloved, my desire... let Me love u, let me reign in ur life..." His love juz brings a peace dat surpasses all understanding. i may seem like a very "all-together" person on the outside, but only He noes everytime i cry out on the inside. wif Him, i dun haf to put up a front, i dun haf to pretend. His love is juz so real! i've every reason to rejoice for the coming year 2005, bcos Jesus is holding my hand n leading me in triumph!
juz a note to add on... i'm truly sorry for the 128,000+ pple who perished bcos of the tsunami dat hit many parts of Asia. many say it's an act of God, dat God is punishing them for rebellion. but NO, NO, a thousand times NO! God is love! if He ceases to love, He ceases to be God! He sent His only Son Jesus to die for us on the cross! how can He kill the very pple He gave His life for? we are all loved by Him, whether we accept His gift or salvation or nt! if God really meant to punish, He'd haf done it long ago n need nt go to all dat trouble, juz blow the Earth to pieces... how the devil can thwart the truth into such a horrible lie! but i noe God is already starting a revival so huge n unstoppable n this part of the world, n the devil noes he cannot stand against it, bcos he's a defeated foe! this is surely a tragedy for a moment, but God is turning it to be a glorious light to the rest of the world! we will see great testimonies, n men n women of God rising up frm these areas in 2005! the devil will hafta return 7x of wat he has stolen!
what a love we have in Jesus... that in the midst of the storm, thru the winds n the rain, He'd still be faithful. when the stars refuse to shine n time is no more, He'd still be faithful, even when we cannot. i can't wait for His flood of blessings to rush into my life!
for whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
Romans 8:29-30