한국을 좋아해~!
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visit korea
big bang!
allkpop
the face shop
beauty credit
the skin food
etude house
나의 평생에 선하심과 인자하심이 정녕 나를 따르리니 내가 여호와의 집에 영원히 거하리로다.
=spiritual food=
new creation church hillsong australia
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. - Hebrews 10:23
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
the fact is, i love my brothers n sisters so, so, so, so much... my life has nt been the same ever since i joined tpcg... being in fellowship, always being encouraged in God's word n being so conscious of God's love for me! perhaps my family dosen't understand, perhaps my old friends dun understand... why i spend so much time in church n in cg. let me tell u. i used to spend so much time doing other stuff, getting myself involved in so many activities. den i thot to myself, wat's the pt of all these in the end? of cos i'm nt some recluse now... juz dat, i choose to spend my time on things which r eternal... my friendship wif my cg-mates hold such a special place in my heart. my first ever cg... of cos lah! hai~ i want so much to grow closer to every single one of them... yet i feel like i'm still nt the real me in front of them... except maybe for 2 of them. but. things changed. i dunno y. n things r continuing to change. my shepherd is changing... i din tell anyone dis, but i'm gonna miss him so much. as a friend too. he has such a heart of love, n he's impacted n touched my life in ways only Jesus noes... he's been thru so much dat i've only heard of, n i want so much to learn more under him! but we won't haf much time together in future anymore... :( he's so annointed, i noe God is using him mightily!
these feelings i feel. everyday. no one will ever noe. but God spoke to me ever so gently, "let go... let go of urself. let me give u wat u've always dreamed of." Lord, You noe the desires of my heart... You noe how much i long to be used by u to be an impact on lives... You noe how much i want to increase in my walk with You... You noe wat's best for me... Lord, i commit myself into Your hand. i let go of myself frm now on, i abandon myself in Your loving embrace Lord! Fill me to superabundance! I love You, because You first loved me.
me and sheryl...
me and wendy!
got to chat with lynne on Sunday afternoon after celebrating elicia's bdae at the millenia fountain... she's so amazing! at first i thot she looked quite intimidating, but then after dat chat, i can't help but feel like "wow...!" abt her! she's actually so, so friendly... she found out dat i was in tourism, n she shared dat even in dat industry i can be part of evangelism. i was like "?", but den she explained - when i bring pple to see the beauty of the mountains, the land n the seas, i'm actually bringing them to see God's very first creation! i nv really thot of it dat way, but once it dropped into my heart dat God always sees me as significant, it truly made me so excited! den she shared abt how when we gather as a care grp, we're nt gathering bcos we're friends, but the Bible calls it the "gathering of saints". when we gather as God's saints, there is power! power more than enough to overcome any circumstances! so much more new revelations to share, but words juz aren't enuff... i'm still like, wow, over wat i've learnt frm her in juz dat short chat... first time i admire a leader dat i wish i can grow to be like her... she's so beautiful n glorious; she's so secure n her sharing is juz so confident! i'm so excited to have her n sian hwa around, bcos i noe dere's so much i can learn frm them... but of cos i'm oso relieved dat zixin dosen't hafta enlist so soon... he's a wonderful shepherd n friend, n dere's so much i wanna learn frm him too! woohoo... i'm so, so excited!! can't wait for our next "gathering of saints"! =D
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
was reading thru a loved one's blog 4 the very first time juz now. n i dunno y, i juz started tearing. cos i saw the words, "i want to be real." i want to be real too. this is wat i've been struggling wif all my life. yes, i've finally said it. i'm struggling. i hate it! i hate the way i'm always so self-conscious! i hate the way i keep tinking n tinking abt wat other pple tink abt me! i hate it dat i make myself depressed bcos i tink dey tink "this this this" abt me! i hate the way my heart hurts when i tink my love is nt reciprocated! :"(
the fact is, i love my brothers n sisters so, so, so, so much... my life has nt been the same ever since i joined tpcg... being in fellowship, always being encouraged in God's word n being so conscious of God's love for me! perhaps my family dosen't understand, perhaps my old friends dun understand... why i spend so much time in church n in cg. let me tell u. i used to spend so much time doing other stuff, getting myself involved in so many activities. den i thot to myself, wat's the pt of all these in the end? of cos i'm nt some recluse now... juz dat, i choose to spend my time on things which r eternal... my friendship wif my cg-mates hold such a special place in my heart. my first ever cg... of cos lah! hai~ i want so much to grow closer to every single one of them... yet i feel like i'm still nt the real me in front of them... except maybe for 2 of them. but. things changed. i dunno y. n things r continuing to change. my shepherd is changing... i din tell anyone dis, but i'm gonna miss him so much. as a friend too. he has such a heart of love, n he's impacted n touched my life in ways only Jesus noes... he's been thru so much dat i've only heard of, n i want so much to learn more under him! but we won't haf much time together in future anymore... :( he's so annointed, i noe God is using him mightily!
these feelings i feel. everyday. no one will ever noe. but God spoke to me ever so gently, "let go... let go of urself. let me give u wat u've always dreamed of." Lord, You noe the desires of my heart... You noe how much i long to be used by u to be an impact on lives... You noe how much i want to increase in my walk with You... You noe wat's best for me... Lord, i commit myself into Your hand. i let go of myself frm now on, i abandon myself in Your loving embrace Lord! Fill me to superabundance! I love You, because You first loved me.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Your love never lets me go
it's everywhere i go
no one can ever comprehend
how You love me so
when i'm down and all alone
i turn to You, my friend
You're never slow to let me know
how You love me so
if You clothed the lilies of the valley
if You feed the birds up in the sky
how much more You give to me?
how much more Your love for me?
how much more Your heart calls out to me?
just because You love me
Saturday, August 07, 2004
allow me to express myself here. dun take it personally. i do still love u. i do wanna put in the effort to make our friendship work. but den i tink, why must we make it work? it's nt work. it's a relationship. how did we end up like this? sure, we lead our own lives, but when did we begin to stop taking an interest in each other's life? when did we start becoming strangers? even den, i dun want anything to suddenly happen juz so to make atonement or wateva u call it. perhaps things change, n can nv return to the same level as it was b4. i'm sorry, but maybe trust is nt something dat is easily rebuilt. esp in me. again i look at myself n see myself standing alone in a crowd. but den i look at my hand n see my Father holding me. dey can't see Him, but He's always been dere for me - loving me, caring for me, laughing wif me, listening to me, comforting me. i'm nt alone. nv was n nv will be. perhaps i juz hafta believe; how can 2 walk together except dey agree? perhaps, we'll walk together happily one day when u hold my hand again. or maybe u hafta hold His hand again. until then, i always love u no matter wat, n i'll always be here for u if u need me. i give u my word.
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
"Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest." (Joshua 1:9)
i realised dat my greatest challenge in life is nt my circumstances; rather, it is myself. my emotions. sometimes i let dem get the better of me. sometimes, i let myself get discouraged by believing in the lies of the devil. issues i've been struggling wif ever since ever... i thot i had dem ironed out, but then i ruffle up the feathers again. n look to myself. again. thank God, it is no longer i who live, but Christ who lives in me. i dun care wat dey say abt me, it's alright... dey'll geddit one day. everyday i feel His love fresh from heaven, n it gives me strength to be in the world... how can anyone reject such a love? a love frm Someone who gave Himself for me despite of who i am?
Your love falls as the morning dew
sweeps me away
till i am lost in You
Jesus my heart it longs for You
Your love reaches out
You hold me close
when i need You most
i live to worship You
to my dear fiona... happy blessed 19th bdae... i may nt be there for you all the time, but my prayers are always wif you! i love u! xx
Sunday, August 01, 2004
me and sheryl...
me and wendy!
for whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
Romans 8:29-30