Tuesday, May 25, 2004

argh... i'm so tired. been coaching for 2 days in a row... 7 hrs ydae n 3 hrs tdy... sunday after church went to office n stayed till very late wif boss, supposed to rehearse wif ailing n kelly. well, things din really go well for me, n i was quite upset. thank God for ailing who empathises n encourages me... reached hme past midnight, rehearsed on my own till 3am, n i cldn't get to slp. can u believe it, i tossed n turned in bed till 5am. i m always able to slp thru anything, i'm like a log! i've nv been on my bed like this n nt being able to even fall aslp for 1/2 hr! well, like i said, it was 5am, n i had to get up w/o getting any slp 'cos i had to be at clementi at 7am. hai~ i was upset n sleepy, but i tink i did well for the workshop... i din prove to be as unprepared as i seemed. tdy was more fun, esp since i had tricia n ailing wif me, both who totally feel as i do. it's the 1st time i've had to coach a whole cls by myself, n it was real draining, handling a 40 pri. 4 girls! but, it was real satisfying as i read their comments on the survey forms abt me... BUT I WILL NEVER CONSIDER TEACHING AS A CAREER MAN! it's too draining!! plus, keep having to wear formal wear... i've sweat so much these few days, plus my feet still hurt frm the horrible court shoes... sucked my life outta me man... ok, but the Lord restores me! =) tmrw i gotta facilitate an enrichment program too... another 7hrs... but, it'll be games, n i hope we all get to enjoy ourselves too!
posted at 11:45 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

goodness. the p6 student i'm tutoring, issac, only got 10/100 for his maths exam... his other subjects aren't exactly worthy to be mentioned as well. my gosh, how... i've been teaching him for 2 mths n the grades r still lidat. it's quite disheartening for me, 'cos he dosen't seem to put his focus on doing well... hai~ the worst is he keeps everything to himself, dosen't feedback to me his feelings or problems wif understanding; everytime i ask if got anything he hafta say, he'll say no problem... hai~ ok, i hafta tink of sumting to make him pull up his socks. i hope he'll see me nt as a teacher but as a friend hu's helping him do well. oh man. i din realise i got so high teaching ethics. hahahaha... joking lah. i always knew i'm so nice one. hee~ at least nt all my students did badly. alastair, for one, did extremely well! he topped his class, or not got 2nd, for every subject! yup... n it was real gd to hear him so excited abt how he claimed his favour n his distinctions juz like i told him i did, n praise Jesus, for He is faithful to His promises! really amazing... the grace of God! i pray God increases me in wisdom n in stature, n in favour wif God n men, like Jesus! amen!

went for briefing tdy at office... there were quite a lot of us - me, ailing, fredrik, kevin, kester, sharon, jieying, annie n dis other guy frm YAMs, christopher... like all campus pple... heh. i met fredrik at the stn, so we went together... my gosh, he has a tendency to run after buses. the last time he ran after one, i got left behind, so in the end went hme by another route. this time he juz took off n i was toking on hp wif double line! man... i ran after dat bus like my life depended on it. ok so i'm exaggerating... but, yeah. i mean, we were early wat. everyone hu noes me noes i hate running after trains or buses. actually, i hate running at all. 'cos it makes me sweat, n my 'gucci rush 2' perfume all went to waste. ok... so dat perfume's nt mine either. wateva. well, found out tdy dat me n ailing will be coaching assumption english sch together nxt wk, den all of us will be facilitating games at st margaret's too. so fun! yup, quite tiring... but it's real interesting...! can't wait...

~why is it so hard for me to know him? i want to be able to laugh with him too...~
posted at 10:55 PM

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

something's been on my mind for quite a long time... it's my blog, so i'm being honest n straightforward. i'm nt gonna hide anything abt this. n i'm nt juz saying all these juz to gain sympathy, 'cos i dun mean it n i dun need it. i wanna tell everyone who reads this blog (if u noe abt it den u muz be sumone impt to me)dat i've been feeling really apologetic dat i've nt been able to keep up to my promises to meet up wif y'all to catch up on wat's been going on in our lives. to tell the truth, i really do wanna meet up, but i've been kinda tight on cash lately, which is why i m not able to date y'all for a nice lunch or dinner. there're so many of u i dearly miss, some who go way back with me n haf seen me thru all my tough days esp! right now, i'm working for my income, n i've cum to realise dat money is nt easily earned. of 'cos, i believe my Father in heaven is continually blessing me wif riches beyond all my mind can conceive, n i noe soon i'll be able to spend wif peace. it's nt wishful thinking, juz dat i put my faith nt in the limited things i can do, but in the unlimited things my Father can n will gif me! =) i hope y'all realise it is nt dat i've forsaken or forgotten u, i haven't! i still think abt each one of u every day... rest assured dat when i haf enough (which is soon, so get prepared!!), i'll DEFINITELY sms/call/email/write to u n date u! WAIT FOR ME!! heh.

okay... den juz to share a bit abt my coaching experience tdy... thanks to ailing again, whom so graciously recommended me to one of the bosses, luke - the image consultant of the coaching company we're wif, i got to follow dem to rgs pri to observe their coaching. well, it was an unnecessarily hot day, n we had to wear formal (minus the blazer, thank God)! i was sweating buckets, n i'm a big sweater (haha). anyway... i followed the 4 of dem - luke, tricia, ailing n fredrik. i got observe ailing, luke n fredrik... n for ailing n fredrik, who're coaching for the 1st time, i thot dey were REALLY gd!! like, wow, dey were real professional, as tho dey had done it a dozen times! i was so in awe... luke, of cos, belongs to a different story. he obviously had the experience, n it was clear in his confidence. heh. he was mr manhunt 99 etc, n u noe wat, me n sheryl rmbr him frm back in ahs when he came to coach us on image grooming too! heehee, i thot i found tricia familiar, now i rmbr! well, i was in court shoes n walking btwn the 3 UN-AIRCONDITIONED (!!) classes, it was horrible the heat! i was honoured to be called to demonstrate for luke's cls on the postures etc... those pri 4 kids ah, very cute! den dey were made to call us "coach", so i was "coach sharmaine", ailing was "coach faith", den "coach fredrik", "coach luke", "coach tricia"... heehee, so fun! like, real ego-booster for me lah. heh. oops. it was really tiring 'cos the session was like, 3 hrs long!! i was tired even tho i din hafta lecture; i really admire the rest hu had to tok non-stop for the 3 hrs! my feet r like bursting in blisters already lah, darn court shoes... hmm... but coaching seems really fun! it's nice to be able to make an impact in young lives n be dat person whom dey look upon to learn frm. i tink i'll get a go this wed at another sch, n i can't wait to get more experience!

You take my hand, and lead me to Your side
Your warm embrace, sets my heart on fire
You are my shelter, God of all wonders
You are the hero of my life

You came for me, Your life for mine
When I can't save myself
You bore my pain, my sin, my shame
Jesus my Lord my life!
posted at 12:04 AM

Friday, May 14, 2004

the holidays r here... n i dunno wat i've been up to. time seems to pass so quickly. been tutoring practically every other day... quite monotonous. actually cum to tink abt it... i rmbr telling everyone this, n my sis can vouch for this, dat i'm totally nt the tutor-material. i juz dun get why dey dun get it. heh. now... well, i'm getting paid to be one. but of cos, i'm nt juz digging gold out of my students, i really hope to put in my best so dat dey can do well too...

gotta thank ailing for getting me the coaching job too... felt so horrible when i rejected the job at chan bros. the job sounds really interesting, i can't wait to start... yet i feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach too, 'cos my weak flesh is trying to make me tink i can't do this job bcos i'm too reserved. GRR. no way man. i'm gonna break dat mindset of mine, in Jesus' name! it's cost me enough. i'm gonna do it well n haf fun doing it!

went for the campus poly bbq last tues... got to noe some pple more, quite nice... at least when i see dem in campus now, i now hu dey r... spent a really nice time in praise n worship wif juz 4 or 5 of us in one of the rms. sean was playing his guitar n singing... i juz love his playing n singing... he's juz so gd! yeah, n he seems to noe every song, even the one i got in my head but i din noe how it went. den when he played n sang it, it was juz so awesome for me...

"Who is like Thee, O Lord among the gods?
Who is like Thee? God there is none else.
You are awesome in praise, doing wonders O Lord.
Who is like Thee O Lord?"

oh yeah, i finished my foundation stones class! yayy!! now i can join the cg for service! but cherlene and alain plus charis have also juz started to attend 4th service too, n i'm so excited for them!! they really enjoy the services, n i juz noe their lives will be transformed by His truth! unconditional love never fails to touch pple's hearts, n who can give such love except the One who knows n loves all of us?
posted at 2:02 PM

Monday, May 03, 2004

i dun live to eat, or eat to live... i eat to enjoy!! yup... so....... i can eat my baos n calcium-filled ice cream n milkshakes with no more guiltiness!! praise Jesus! heh heh. uh huh.
posted at 12:37 AM