Sunday, March 28, 2004

gosh. how time flies. i realise i haven't been keeping in contact wif so many frens... been putting off our "dates" for so long...! feel real sorry... n i haven been updating cos of my comp... but i have a new comp on the way, praise Jesus! =)

i've been so busy giving tuition to 2 pri. sch kids. thank God for hearing my groans cos one sacked me... hah. blessing in disguise, cos dat kid was really testing my patience man. well... now i can slp in late everyday again! yup...

hmm. every wk i seem to be so busy... but at the end of the wk, i always feel so fulfilled... so filled, so satisfied in the spirit. it's juz amazing to be able to spend time in God's Word n to fellowship wif my care grp! we went lau pa sat for dinner the other nite... hah. real fun, tho girls only got me n ailing... it was nice to get to noe the other guys better too... damn funny how dey always tease ailing... haha. yeah. n care grp session ydae was really annointed too. it was my 1st time leading games, wif ailing... quite fun... zixin's sharing was really confident! he was really flowing with the Holy Spirit's leading, n i really enjoyed myself... i caught nuggets of precious truths too! now i got foundation stones, can't go 3rd service wif cg... so i'll only see them during BS n campus or cg... gosh! how i wish i can go church everyday, immerse myself in God's everlasting goodness!! i was actually tinking abt joining nursery ministry, n zixin plus regan, sean, ailing n ruth really supported me... but den i heard another perspective frm elicia n coach tammy... so i've thought n prayed abt it, n i've decided to be an ambassador in campus ministry! i'm so excited!! i'm still quite new, 6 mths, but... i hafta say i'm blessed to be favoured! dat coach tammy n zixin actually want to recommend me to be one... i'm excited abt all dat's gonna happen! gosh... i noe it seems hard for pple of the world to understand. but i juz can't help falling more n more in love with Jesus each moment of every day... His faithfulness n His love for me is immeasurable, n i'm definitely amongst the most blessed! i can't wait to watch "the passion of the Christ"!! we watching as cg wif campus ministry, den after the movie got praise n worship in the rock!! yayyy!!!!! wat betta way than to glorify the One Reason for my living... My Jesus!
posted at 9:54 PM

Sunday, March 14, 2004

"Worship Under The Stars"
finally... the day i've been waiting for... whew. the day was real hot n sunny! i'm kinda burnt now... altho there were only 3 game stations, it was quite fun, getting to noe everyone betta... we changed n den had a sumptuous dinner n started worship. we were actually rite in front of the stage!! but it started raining, n den thunder n lightning... the rain was real heavy, n the mics stopped working, but we all continued worshipping in the rain! it was incredible, the atmosphere! but later deacon announced dat we wld hafta wait for the lightning to stop b4 resuming half an hr ltr. we did resume again, but only for a while b4 deacon announced again dat we had to end bcos we had to return their rented equipment. hmm. i guess many of us were quite disppointed, but i looked around n saw so many wet bodies, n we looked up to the sky n shouted dat we saw stars... it was so amazing to noe dat all of us, pple of faith, went hme receiving our miracle anyway... it was an eventful day, n i went hme tired, but somehow, very much satisfied in the spirit.

i wish for more.
posted at 10:49 PM

Thursday, March 11, 2004

i had such a fun time ydae!! hah. firstly, i din hafta go to sch... again! heh. cos tut cancelled. so i met up wif ailing after her cls and we went to her sis' condo at bukit batok (so far!!). her sis kindly opened up her apartment for us to fellowship! quite ulu ah the place, but den very beautiful, the condo. surroundings r all fields, like some kampong lidat. den her sis set up her own montessori in her living rm, all the masak-masak n wooden toys n tiny tables n chairs so cute! almost wanted to sit down n play, but her ailing said her sis dun allow. so... heh. we went swimming! the pool was damn huge n damn pretty, all to ourselves!! got waterfall n jacuzzi sumore... shiok...! we swam abt 2 hrs, den we got changed n went to fetch zixin, sean n derek frm bukit batok mrt. ltr on, after we got back into the apartment, me n ailing cooked noodles for the guys. den after dey ate, all of us juz sat in the midst of the toys (i felt a bit like in kindergarten again) n sean shared abt God n played his guitar at the same time. gosh, it was so peaceful... really shuts out everything, when all we could hear was the guitar n zixin n sean singing. did i mention dey're REALLY good at singing... brings me right into God's presence.
well, ltr on kevin n wendy joined us, n the pizzas came too! real yummy... after dat we even made pancakes to eat wif ice ream n strawberries!! hah, quite cool 'cos actually it was actually sean, kevin n derek hu COOKED the pancakes! hah. n dey SERVED us! aww man... the pancakes plus ice cream n strawberries were... oooohhh. sooo good! hah... we all got fat together, dat's the greatest thing! yup... i had time to chat wif zixin n derek, n it was real nice... it's always nice to talk to zixin, he's just so sincere... it was fun toking to derek as well, quite farnie ah he, cos he got blue painted nails, n he saw the henna i drew on my hand n he wanted me to draw for him too! haha...
ltr in the nite when we had cleared everything, we went into another tv room, which was cosier, n played this 'game' where we had to write nice stuff abt each other. yar, it's really sweet cos everytime i read the paper, it makes me all warm n fuzzy inside... then wow... we went into a really great time of prayer, praise n worship. really, really great...! we prayed for many things, n esp for saturday's 'worship under the stars'! i can't wait!!!
yup... it was only ydae... truly enjoyed myself, can't wait for more! SATURDAY!!!!!!
posted at 1:51 PM

Monday, March 08, 2004

i can't help myself. i keep tinking... i was so happy ydae. i wish we had talked more. i wish... it was just us. i wish i knew. or do i?
posted at 1:48 AM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

i tink perhaps i've come to terms with how to respond to my anger, n dat is not to get angry. yep, true dat no one has the power to make me angry, or hurt, or disappointed... only myself. sometimes i wonder if dat's really it, or dat i've given up on trying to blame. haf i gone apathetic? i would hate to tink dat... anyways, it's a lot betta nt to boil. i din believe ever b4 dat things cld really come to this stage. well, now dat it has... i gotta stop tinking dat things will get betta by themselves... of cos i believe my Father will bless me superabundantly, but i feel now dat i'm being called to do my part for the family, n i can't sit back n look on anymore. i juz hope i still haf time for my ccas... hmm. i noe pa feels i'm on the wrong side of maslow's hierarchy of needs, but i beg to differ. i tink i'm on the right side, n i won't give it up.
posted at 12:14 PM