Friday, February 27, 2004

ARGH!!!! suddenly, the wk-long holidays r almost over....! n i dun seem to have done anything productive!! hai~ all my projects n assignments... untouched! oh man...

oh well. i cut my hair TWICE. first on tues at kimarie for 40 bux den for 10 bux ydae... it looks a lot better now, at least i dun look like shitake again. i kinda miss my long hair, but i'm not mourning or anything... juz dat my long hair kinda gave me a sense of security ya noe... but i haven't felt my head so light in such a long time. heh~ quite good feeling actually, last time always get headache frm my heavy ponytail. ah huh. my frens had betta say it looks gd... heh heh. tues after i cut my hair went to meet up with fiona... dat sunday met up with her n eunice go eat fish & co. at the glass hse (eunice's treat!), was really gd... gd to see dat we still haf stuff to tok abt, dat we're still very gd frens (almost sisters!)... i sometimes wonder lah. i miss how can totally be myself n start preaching knowing dat dey understand (y i'm preaching, i mean). anyway, i met up with fiona (whose hair oso so 'hip' now. yeah.) n den we went to find lee huan, sab n karin at 'the scene' in wisma. ok, come to tink of it, i feel so bad for fiona, din get to hang out much wif her dat day. anyway... we went to watch movie after dat. "something's gotta give" is nt bad...

i went to see the doc for my eye infection again. she gave me an ointment instead of the eyedrops. she said it's supposed to be more effective. well, it's kinda oily, so when i apply it (into my eyes), i can't really see clearly. like, oily lah. kept blinking n blinking but still can't see properly. after dat jalan a bit wif ma, den i kinda stoned on my own waiting for bible study to start. was supposed to meet ailing at kfc for dinner, but the service atart 7.30pm, 5.20pm already got pple queing outside the Rock!! yeah, so by the time ailing came, we decided to que, den din go kfc. hmm, ydae's worship songs like all very old den i dun really noe how to sing. nt very high. heh. i can't wait for the worship under the stars!!!! it's gonna be soooo.... cool! i actually invited quite a lot of pple. but michelle n victoria nt coming, like, i sent them invitation dey din reply me can... well, sheryl n alastair r coming wif me. a bit weird cos i signed them up under tpb care grp, when dey're nt frm tp... esp alastair, underaged! hurh. hope it won't be weird dat day. fiona, eunice n celine oso going under sajc care grp... so fun!

i'm really, really blessed... looking back at where i was a year ago... now i live each day looking forward to when i can go church again. ma was telling me ydae dat she dosen't want us to feel compelled to follow her footsteps n become Christians. but i noe for myself y i want to be God's child, bcos i've been so so so so blessed, n much more! i'm really so grateful for my care grp, n i'm glad i've finally found my home church...!


posted at 11:42 AM

Monday, February 16, 2004

argh… i juz fin my ‘tourism destinations’ test. =( i din do as well as i wanted to. i din noe wat LHR (london heathrow airport) was, nor the codes for the Japanese yen (JPY, not YEN as i wrote…), dunno wat ‘lester b. dunno wat airport’ in Canada, nor the airline code for finnair (AY not FN…)… n i thot CDG was jakarta (@_@), i din tink it was PARIS. *sigh…* i hafta stop dwelling on it, or i won’t be able to stdy for macroecons n mbs. i tink i did quite well for mapwork tho’, n i hope for dat India case stdy… i pray hard dat it dosen’t spoil my aim for distinction. grace grace.

ok, move on to happy stuff… i totally enjoyed myself at keti’s workshop on sat!! it was at the singapore repertory theatre at robertson walk, quite cool… i wish i had the money to go for all 4 workshops, but alas, i only made it for the drum solo workshop. anyway i gotta go church on sunday so cannot… i was so happy she actually recognized me n rmbred me!! like, so cool ‘cos i kinda admire her A LOT u noe, n she came over n gave me a hug (only me! heh…) n den she told me i was looking more like a woman now! which makes me tink, did i ever NOT look like one? i mean, i dun tink i looked like a little girl back then too. well anyway, i went wif my new frens saofiah n jessica. dey’re nice, even gave me a lift there… i loved the drum solo!! very very nice, lotsa shimmies n hip stuff. heh, gd for a short performance… keti said i did very well n even called me out to join another 4 ladies to perform on our own! heh, forgive me if i brag. but it was so cool, considering 3 of the 4 were rather renowned bellydance teachers in singapore... but i tink i did better. heehee. okok… after the lesson all of us headed down to capadoccia turkish restaurant for tea. but i had to rush off for care grp, so i informed keti n paid her. she said (again!) to the other women around her, “she’s looking more like a woman now isn’t she?” with the friendliest smile on her face, n the other women (mostly tai-tais) were looking at me with the “huh” look. like wateva. until keti mentioned, “u started with me when u were 16 rite?” n i nodded, THEN the other women realized i wasn’t like, one of them tai-tais? -_-“ heh. oh well. gosh i wish i could have joined the other workshops!!!!! argh… like when will i ever be able to dance again…

i took a cab down to old church office for care grp… i was so excited, ‘cos i had bought 10 stalks of orange gerberas for the care grp. i din realise so many pple wld turn up! in the end i gave 5 away, to ruth, winnie, wendy, elicia n ailing… there were like 7 guys, so i cldn’t give only 5 of them. i thot i had to give zixin ‘cos he’s the care grp leader, den like very weird if i din give him… ailing said zixin liked flowers a lot, so in the end me n winnie used serviettes (-_-“ no ribbon lah.) to tie the other 5 gerberas together n i gave him the bunch when the sharing was over. it felt weird, n i still feel weird tinking abt it, but it was quite cute to see the orange gerberas sticking out of his haversack. all of us went to bugis junction to watch movie, n i felt sooooo paiseh! ‘cos why? ‘cos i had no money again! n when zixin asked me wat movie i wanted to watch, i said i wanted to watch “along came polly”!! den when dey queing i realized i had nt enuff munee!!! =”( i was kinda grateful ‘cos ailing oso nt enuff munee… we both decided nt to go already n we were walking around topshop when elicia called me n asked me why i dun wanna watch, issit ‘cos of money. argh, why she dun call ailing call me… actually, i kinda afraid of elicia… nt in a bad sense, juz dat she’s so confident dat sometimes intimidates me ‘cos i’m nt… anyway, some of them chipped in n treated me n ailing to the movie!! ohhh…. felt so bad! i noe dey wanted to bless us, so sweet of them, i felt bad ‘cos it’s me who spent my munee elsewhere… i muz save up frm now on!!

ydae i managed to start queing for 2nd service early, at 10am…quite proud of myself ‘cos sure can get seat in audi. ydae service was really gd!! besides the fact dat i was joined by eunice, celine, elicia, michelle n wilson, winnie n yan fen… so fun! worship was really incredible… n the message was gd too! argh, too bad i having exams, if nt i cld’ve joined eunice n fiona for fish n co!!! nvm, there’s always nxt sunday, den i’ll be free!!! yay!!! now, back to mbs n econs for me… argh!

posted at 6:12 PM

Saturday, February 14, 2004

hmm. next wk my exams start, n i haven't really started stdying... by the grace of God i will do EXTREMELY well!! yup... heh.

hai~ helped out at open hse ydae in chat rm... quite tiring to stand n tok for 3 hrs, repeating the same old stuff, in formal wear! urgh. i admire the new batch, can get to stdy hospi also, n can stdy in sentosa!!!! i oso want!!! hai~ oh well. sheryl came to find me at the open hse, den i brought her around. it felt nice to see her being comfortable to tok to my frens, like karin, sab, sharon, pam, priyanka etc... heh. yeah, i'm so grateful the 2 of us haf grown so much closer since i dunno when. sumhow we grew up n closer. i mean, i used to hate her u noe. now i noe i love her very much, she noes me best, n i can't do w/o her, even if she's TOO frank sumtimes. heh. lucky she dosen't read this. i dun wanna influence her to join me in poly or anything, but i do pray she finds out for herself wat she really wants for herself, n nt end up like me, giving up halfway.

ok... tmrw is valentine's. heh. it's been quite a while since i had a valentine. heh, s'ok, n'ehmind! haha... i believe God is TOTALLY preparing me n my other one for each other. yup. at least i've got a packed schedule tmrw, one dat i quite like actually. i got econs tut at 9am... @_@ soooooo fun. ok. den i got bellydance workshop with keti!! yayy! she's finally back frm egypt! but i'm only going for 1 workshop, i can't afford to go for all 4, plus i want to go to church, as mush as i'd like to dance more. God is DEFINITELY more impt. ooh, den i got care grp!! yay!!!!! hmm, but kelly's nt going... i do hope the rest r going. if nt, so weird.

tdy's bible stdy message was real gd! pastor prince toked abt our physical body n wat God wants for it. he prayed a really powerful prayer for us at the end of the service, soumthing i guess we always thot we knew, but we nv acknowledged out loud. i have divine health in Jesus!! gosh, i've always wanted healing for myself, but i din really dare believe i can have divine health... now i do! i can't say enuff of how much God's love for me has changed me n my life so so incredibly... i m His beloved!! Praise God!
posted at 1:08 AM

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

hah. i'm so bored... in com lab now waiting for my uculture field trip to the eurasian community house, or something lidat. kinda looking fwd to it 'cos they're giving out kueh-kuehs n drinks!! hur hur.

i got my pacesetters uniform ydae... got a shock to see my skirt so short!! n den i can't stand the mandarin collar!!! i felt like froie gras (stuffed goose. i tink dat's how u spell it.) well, quite exciting, i can start doing duty liao!! hmm. but netball training was cancelled again ydae. i haven't been going for quite some time too... but, i seriously hope they won't disband it. it seems so selfish of us.

ahhhh...... i gotta go. bye. hah. wateva.
posted at 5:32 PM

Sunday, February 08, 2004

went for campus ydae... praise n worship was awesome!! the Holy Spirit moved so strongly among us... n we din even realise dat 2 hrs had gone by! Jesus was definitely there with us, n i felt God touch my heart, speaking to my innermost worries... felt so at peace, even until now! yup, n den there's gonna be this "worship under the stars" thing at palawan beach, sentosa on the 13th march! can't wait for it! imagine having worship next to the lapping sea n under the stars!!! anyone who wants to come join me, do let me know!!

heh~ heh heh heh... sweet sweet feeling... heh heh... can't wait for sat!!! uh huh, besides the fact dat i'm finally gonna see keti, n dance again after so long... heh heh~ can't wait!
posted at 11:39 PM

Monday, February 02, 2004

(so sorry i haven’t been updating… my comp is as miserable as ever. n i m too, over it.)

~CHINGAY 2004~

whew… chingay has come n gone… all those days of training, me n sab kept complaining n whining, wondering y in the world we got ourselves involved in motivators when it’s totally unlike us. well, i’m so glad to be able to say after it all, dat everything was well worth it! i tink the both of us really did enjoy ourselves a lot… =)

hur. at first arthur was so happy dat the 3 of us would be lead motivators in the same grp… me too lah, cos he’s always so chirpy, n he told us like all the time must enjoy ourselves. since he’s done this b4, i tot maybe he could, like, show us the ropes. plus he’s a senior pacesetter, so i tot also it’d be so cool for a senior n 2 juniors to bond as well… but den dunno y on the day of the preview me n sab were made lead motivators of the quick response force, n arthur had been changed to another grp. =( i felt quite sad for arthur, cos can tell it wasn’t easy for him to bond with his whole grp of srjc motivators alone. but den again, he’s ARTHUR, so i tink he got into the good books of his grp quickly!

preview was quite tough for our grp. we were the QRF, n sab had a blister… we got deployed to crowd control at the dispersal area. phwoar, we ran like all the way frm taka to heeren can. it’s nt far, but after standing n squatting n dancing for hours suddenly need to run all the way… no joke. it was quite boring there, couldn’t really see the action. at least i got to see cynthia koh, jamie teo n dat new star search winner frm vjc first. heh. starstruck.

preview day was harder… nt much pple n a lot of stuff to do. but den came the actual chingay! u noe, i always tot chingay was… boring. like, yeah, chingay, so? but whoa, the atmosphere even b4 it started was so exciting… i’m glad i got to noe the srjc pple in my grp better in juz dat 2 days. we got real hyped up, n i tink we did a much better job than expected! i was ker-azy dat day! haha, maybe drunk frm the power of being lead motivator. we had black shirts to distinguish us frm the other 600+ motivators, so i felt really gd like, cos i felt so in charge n important! hah, the suppressed megalomaniac in me… hah. anyway, i was waving a shiny blue pom-pom, my face painted (by cosmoprof! hah.) n a light stick round my neck, using a water gun at my grp, n jumping, screaming, clapping n dancing to saturday night fever n the ketchup song… yeah. i always say i have stage fright. but there were abt 200 000 pple present at the actual chingay, thousands in front of me (even sitting on the telephone booths!), yet i felt so much larger than them. i’m glad i din feel intimidated, even when i clapped, danced n screamed to no response. ok, got a bit of response lah. 2 arab men filmed me n laughed at me. n the children sitting on the kerb called me “auntie” asking me to give them my pom-pom n water gun. humph. i pretend nv hear them at first, den i tried to act busy. heh. yup, i really had a lot of fun, plus i got to see jackie chan n other stars up close… oooohhhh, n so many cute guys performing!! esp dat nakata-lookalike frm the jap assc. who teased me with his tambourine! *swoon* hah, den so farnie, the “fortune god”’s helper asked me for tissue for him. haha… n one of the “monkeys” on stilts took a bottle of water frm us. heehee~

hai~ now it’s over, i kinda miss the experience… very, very tiring, but i made a lot of frens, really nice pple… n quite sad to tink we may nv meet for a long time. i tink i’ve grown to love this motivator thing, n i really can’t wait for the next event!

p.s we were supposed to return all pom-poms after chingay, but i found one on the road as me n sab were heading hme, so i took it! oops… now i have a gold shiny pom-pom!

posted at 1:14 AM