Friday, September 26, 2003

hmm. i wrote a long letter to michelle. hope it touches her in some way...

meiqiang called me ydae n we toked for quite long... it was good to hear frm her. i realise i've bcum detached frm my tj frens... i do hope i get to visit during gp lessons soon again!

received an email frm keti's assistant regarding 2 specially-made costumes which she's putting up for sale... i'm so tempted. i've always been thinking of getting my own costume. maybe i shld get proactive.
posted at 5:07 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

hmm. i'm feeling quite good. cos i'm kinda getting along better wif the tp netballers... i tink. i noe dey tink i'm very quiet, too reserved. i appreciate their nice gestures, like approaching me n juz sitting wif me to talk. like bong, both serene's, huijun, azlina etc... n esp michelle. she's really very nice. had a good chat wif her in the last 2 days. toking to her is really nice... too bad she's quitting netball. juz when we got to noe each other better. juz when i'm opening up. i'm nt sure i can hang in dere on my own. i sincerely tink she's the best person to be captain, but i also noe she's going on to do great things for God. i'm gonna miss having her around in netball... things sure ain't gonna be the same...
posted at 11:55 AM

Sunday, September 21, 2003

this entry is dedicated to God.

tdy i m a newer creation. tdy i finally learned abt the gift of tongues. tdy i finally acknowledged dat God has always blessed me wif that gift. tdy is the first time i made use of my gift of tongues. after 5 yrs of doubt, fear, rejection,worry and misconceptions. i have to really apologise to everyone whom i've kinda misled. cos i was wrong. n others were rite. this gift is truely a wonderful gift! it seemed awkward at first cos i was so self conscious, but now i noe that this is the freedom i had always missed. i felt as though i had prayed a thousand words to God, so effortlessly, so freely worshipping Him... n the best thing is knowing it's the Holy Spirit praying thru' me, for me... it sounded better than any song i've ever sung wif my lips. i suddenly feel so free! i dun feel tied down to anything anymore... really.

i want to worship in spirit n in truth. i wanna live for God.
posted at 11:46 PM

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

i getting a bit sian with sch. the work's slowly cuming in...

hee hee... juz saw him. his grin is sooo dazzling! my heart is fluttering now... haha. cheap thrill lah.

memories flew thru my head during apel juz now. sure, i miss some parts of him. but i made myself forget already. so i'm nt gonna start again...

i'm moving on...!
posted at 4:14 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2003

i have a burnt neck n a burnt face. n i juz dyed my hair red, so my hair n face match. hah. all bcos ydae went sentosa wif some of the tp netballers... we had fun swimming around, playing ball n throwing wet sand around. wanted to play beach volley at first, but dere were the quicksilver volleyball matches, so cannot... went home earlier wif wet pants. hai~ my attempt to fit in.

oooohhh... priyanka got tix for the both of us to go watch the forbidden city, n it was GOOD! too bad we had circle seats n i cldn't see their faces at all! far cry frm ms saigon... but it was well worth it. love the costumes... n kit chan is better than i thot. if i had the money, i wldn't even mind watching again, this time wif better seats! i'm so inspired to go take up vocal lessons again... heh~

finally got to go back to church tdy after 2 wks w/o it! gosh i needed it so much... plus got to meet eunice after 2 wks of absence! enjoyed praise n worship so much... n the sermon was... revelationary! i want to break thru to an abundant life! heh. i hope campus ministry calls me for meeting soon!

finally, i'm so broke.
posted at 6:39 PM

Friday, September 12, 2003

i'm losing my momentum. i wonder if i have enuff energy to keep myself going.

pple r still asking me qns like, do i tink i made the right choice in cuming to poly. i say it again, i did! i love poly life so much, i know God never meant my leave from jc to be a curse, but a blessing. but i'm very grateful for the time i spent in tj, n i still love u all for all the good times!

n to all hu r having prelims, dun stress ya... i'll be praying hard for u!
stdy hard! -xx

p.s i so sad my muack-muack no chance liao!! find another one!! (heehee~)
posted at 10:19 AM

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

i juz returned from pacesetters camp. it was really really gd! i really enjoyed myself... it was such a different experience compared to the adventure club camp. the 15 of us freshmen really bonded real well real quickly, esp sunday, the last day. i became good frens with almost all of them, 'cos they're all so approachable! even the seniors as well... lena, annabelle, siow ping, hardy, samantha (who bellydances as well!), all of them! some of them- dayana, arthur, camelia, samantha, maryann, si kai +++ actually rmbered me as the bellydancer lah, n ask me to dance for them again! argh. nice to know i'm rmbered, but so paiseh...! but i did dance with samantha n adja on the last nite, heh~ a short coaching lesson. oh yeah, i did the trust fall, n even did it again blindfolded!! my gosh. one of my greatest achievements, considering i'm SOOOO heavy. i tink stewart hurt himself while catching me. oops.

saturdae we had etiquette workshop, n it was cool learning how to intro pple properly, walk n stand properly, handshake properly... den ZA came n gave us a make-up workshop. hah... the most enjoyable part was watching the guys- kyo n qun gen, getting their eyebrows shaped, lashes curled n lips glossed! haha... but the role-playing activity at nite kinda freaked me out, n my grp mates as well i tink... oh yeah, my grp was named "pinkos!", after our pink lanyards. besides me, my grp consisted of juliana, michael, ahmad n trevor. yeah, we won best grp tdy!! :) hee~ i still smile when i tink abt our first activity of the discovery game thingie… heh.

i’m real glad i made such good frens in only 3 days 2 nights. juliana, michael, ahmad, trevor, stewart, adja, adilah, zarifah, lee huan, yiming. + 4 of us from tourism. i do hope we bcum really close frens n enjoy our 3-yr stint as tp pacesetters!

posted at 3:03 PM

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

i'm a blessed person. been feeling quite good, n dat's enough for me. been toking to pple i want to love more, n want dem to love me more. but i face another bout of uncertainty again. sometimes i wonder why i'm pushing myself to do so many things. do i really wanna get into an overseas uni? can i actually handle the amount, or maybe even more, of stress dat i got rid of when i left tj? i visited the hillsongs webpage ydae n saw the courses dey offer in their church leadership college, n i so want to go... i really m very interested, but my chances seem bleak. i noe dis may seem to others dat i want to do everything, dat's it's juz a phase. or dey tell me dis kind of thing muz be a calling frm God... i noe i'm not ready now, but i also noe for sure dat's really all i need. i want to be able to serve n honour God. He's all dat matters in the end anyway... i juz wish i wldn't worry dat much, noeing dat He's in control.
posted at 10:45 AM