Sunday, August 31, 2003

ahhh..... exams over. juz got back frm TP netball camp... only stayed for the 2nd night, cos on saturday i went to fullerton for hotel inspection trip! fullerton is so high-class!! i'm SO holding my wedding dinner there man... i juz adore the loft suite!!! n the bed linens are sooooo smooth!!! heh. dream first. we took lotsa fotos, den a bunch of us went to pig out (really!!) at pizza hut... 3 pizzas +++! heh. fiona joined us too. felt so pro wearing the suit again. hee...

anyway, i had quite a bit of fun at the camp. it was supposed to be a training camp, but i din do any form of training wif dem at all, instead i ate n ate! heh. it was sinping's bdae n a few of us (bong, joanne, angie, wenyan, huiyun, weiling, faz n me) sabo-ed sinping by smashing eggs, flour, 3-in-1 milo powder, chilli sauce n water on her. hah... den we locked her out of the chalet alone... poor her! a few of us din intend to sleep, stayed up to tell ghost stories (@@). in the end dey all cannot tahan so we all went to sleep at 4.30am... i slept btwn yanru n weiling w/o any pillow n blanket. lucky i wasn't freezing like dey all were. halfway thru i felt wetness dripping on my cheek so i wiped dem off. i rmbr seeing bong grinning mischieviously over me, but i went back to sleep. hah. turns out dat bong put toothpaste on everyone's face while we were slping, but i felt it, hah. so i wasn't stinging frm the toothpaste in the morning!

ahh. long story short. i tink the camp did serve its purpose in some sense, for me. tho' i din tok much, i felt dat this camp helped all of us, juniors n seniors, to bond more. but as all who noe me well noe me, i'm very introverted at times. i choose to be. bong is really very nice, kept trying to include me in conversations n always grinning at everyone. n i tot at first dat she very attitude! heh. well, i got to tok to michelle, huijun, yanru n serene a bit, esp michelle. it's awkward, but nice. i din really get to tok to joanne tho', which is weird cos' i always guard her when we train. hai~ bottom-line: ok lah, quite fun...

after having only 2 hrs sleep, i rushed hme to bathe, n den rushed to swenson's at changi airport t2 for the tj netball jts. hai~ dey were real nice to invite me, n i told myself to open up when i met dem, but in the end still sit quietly... i did tok to sharifah, amalina, elizabeth, wendy n rose tho'... but... weird leh. but we seniors rcved a really sweet prez each... i'm glad i went! BUT... my stupid slippers tore on BOTH SIDES when i was leaving, so i cldn't go to church cos i had to wait while sitting stupidly in the airport for ma to bring me another pair of slippers!! like so paiseh lah, cos elizabeth n wendy saw me! darn...! i was SOOOOO looking forward to going to church!! argh! n dat was my newest fave pair of slippers!!!!!! grr.

hmm. u noe. i tot i managed to get rid of my shyness in front of pple, or rather, forced myself to get rid of, when i entered tourism in poly. but it still rears its head every so often. why? i mean, i believe i m quite amiable. but i realise dat there's so much crap toking involved when u're juz getting pple interested in toking to u. like, i dunno leh. i juz like to stone mah. den pple ask y i dun tok. i mean, wat's the pt in tokking words of no absolute importance or interest juz to get a conversation going? i'd rather ask abt each other's interests, u noe, like personal details, get to noe the person more... nt mindless chatter. hah... ok. during breakfast tdy, bong asked me y i always so quiet, ask me to tok more. so i said rather matter-of-factly, "so wat u want me to tok abt?" n michelle laughed at bong, hu was also quite amused, say she kana bang. i kinda guessed wat dat meant. heh. but really mah. nutting to tok den wat for anyhow tok. argh, is this warped thinking again? is this wat makes pple tink i'm unsociable? shld i tok more? hmm. unless i'm really into the topic, i actually kinda hate toking too much, as well as listening to pple hu tok too much. hai~ i tink it's juz me again...

anyway. my 1 wk holiday is no holiday at all. after 1 weekend of netball camp, tmrw i got meetings all the way, den netball training at nite. tues got marshalling to do for the graduation. thurs got training. den nxt weekend again got pacesetters camp. so i only free on wed!!! wat kind of holiday man... BUT, i made it this way. no one to blame but me.
posted at 9:17 PM

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

i M a very busy person!! i got TP netball camp till monday this wkend, den at the same time the TJ netballers invite me for junior-treat-senior... AT THE SAME TIME got fullerton hotel inspection trip... den nxt wkend got pacesetters camp... which means i can't go for campus meeting! :( i dun even noe when i got time to work at fullerton... dun get me wrong, i love having all these to do, but i wish i had the time to do everything!!

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posted at 11:08 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2003

urgh... wat m i doin here. i got econs mid-sem test tmrw n i'm blogging!!! i'm addicted.

i've bcum a very very busy person. i made dat myself, which i totally dun understand y. i got into pacesetters btw... gosh. i no face liao. we had to do a 5min speech in front of a whole LT of pple... i actually did a presentation on BELLYDANCING n i actually DANCED FOR THEM. i dunno wat came over me. panic certainly took over halfway thru my dance. my 1st public performance!! i was sweating like a FLOWING tap. i still feel quite embarassed, but i'm quite glad it gave the seniors a gd impression of me, or so i heard frm karin... well, dey gave gd comments, like saying i was creative. n i heard some girls tease the guys abt their eyeballs falling out while watching me n drooling at the same time. one guy yelled to me frm the back of the LT to not make this my last performance (which i suppose is a compliment). den as i left, all of them kept telling me along the way dat i was very gd, n all i was trying to do was get out as fast as i cld! heh~ ok lah, i'm very grateful it din go down the drain leaving me wif nutting... it felt very comforting to see my name on the top of the selected 15. ok, shall stop bragging liao...! so now, i'm a pacesetter!! as well as a netballer n an adventurer... hai~ how to handle man... ooh, THANK U LORD!

went to hotel rendezvous on friday. nice hotel. heh, went wif small fry's mr "lover lover"! haha... can't wait for fullerton trip, when we get to wear full suits!! hee. anyway, tdy went to fullerton for training as banquet server. got to tour around wif the asst f&b manager... hu's quite farnie. i love the ambience of the hotel, but.......... I WANT TO BE A GUEST! NOT A SERVER! heh... well, at least it's prestigious to work there.

oh... the most exciting thing i wanna say..... i joined campus ministry in new creation tdy!! yayyy! i haf to attend it for 6 mths b4 i can officially bcum a member of the church. got to meet these 2 really friendly girls hu helped intro me to this other guy oso frm tp. can't wait to attend meetings!!! hmm. i wonder when i can let eunice noe... oh, n pastor prince showed us a video of their previous israel trip! i wanna go!!! it's SOOOOOO beautiful!! i've always wanted to go!!! wat betta than to go wif a church!! he asked hu wanted to go, dun bother abt the $$ first, so i raised n waved my arm. n den he prayed to God to provide us wif the means to go for this trip!!! den after service i went to get the form! so exciting!!!! i noe to many it might sound like wishful thinking, but i noe i'm nt! i felt God calling me... i felt He wanted me to go, n i'm gonna trust for His provision!! maybe nt immediate effect, but i still believe! heh~ it's weird how Anglican i used to act, n now i'm acting Charismatic.

ok. i betta go slp now b4 i forget all my econs. heh. personal reminder: see gold!
posted at 11:54 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

I LOVE GOD!!! :) hah... the hillsongs praise n worship concert was SO GOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! heh. u noe i actually went for the concert alone; i went at 5.30pm to que, n i got a nice seat next to the stage, where i could see darlene n dat cute guitarist! heehee.... then before the concert started, rachel called me to ask if i was also there, n den i went over to join her and shaun n their frens at the gallery facing the stage. aiyah, can't really see, but nvm!! we ran down to the bottom of the stage to dance n jump n sing!! gosh, it felt so so nice!!!! i'm so glad i went, God made it such a wonderful experience fo me!! yayyy.... too bad for the pple hu din go! hah. :p! darlene was so powerful! heh.

argh, i gotta go. back to dreamweaver...
posted at 3:10 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2003

hah. i dun care if my interview for pacesetters sucked tdy. i'm so happy! ok, first abt the interview. i tried nt to be a nervous wreck dat i am in front of strangers... i tink i answered the first round of questions quite ok, although i did feel VERY overdressed. argh, then i totally like failed the written exam lah. i dun noe the principal's name or even wat the tp logo means. even the interactive session freaked me. i shld so live in recluse. ah wateva. if i get in i get in. i can't give up on my dream of a scholarship juz bcos i'm a snail. heh. but i did feel so gd in my suit tdy. pple treat me differently! like, so many insurance n bank pple approach me! haha. even the mos burger pple treated me with so much respect. i felt so POWERFUL! hee. ma say i look like lawyer, like far frm it lah.

it's been great these few days, meeting up with fiona dat day at starbucks, and then tdy with nicholas and brian. i had so much to chat with each of them, and it felt like good ol' times again. hah, as tho' we hadn't seen each other for yrs lidat. it sure feels like it, ever since i got into poly. feel like i aged 10 yrs. heh. din get to meet fiona tdy. miss her already!! hah. ah huh. rite. :p

tmrw i'm going to hillsongs. probably alone. hai~ ok. now i'm damn sad. i heard michelle n yanru going tdy. rachel n shaun going tdy too. hai~ nbdy pei me this yr. seems like only i enthu. maybe cos EVERYONE having prelims lah. except poly pple. like suddenly i feel cut off frm my frens again, all who happen to still be in jc... humph. i dun care, i'm still going, n i'm gonna get FABULOUS seats, AND I'M GONNA ENJOY MYSELF AT PRAISE AND WORSHIP WITH HILLSONGS!!
posted at 8:45 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2003

tdy's sunday!! went to church, n i enjoyed praise n worship so much! felt so good, totally at peace. we sang this song, "great is the Lord", one of my faves. i rmbr singing it months ago while i was still attending st andrew's cathedral the vch service AND still in tjc... i was sobbing so hard when i sang it (i tink i scared fiona n alastair), 'cos it was such a stressful time for me then, nt knowing what i was doing wif my life, n all dat schwork... then this song came out, n i rmbr hearing God so, so clearly, reassuring me that i can trust in His unfailing love, and that He'll never let me down. yup, in the past few months, when i thought everything was going haywire, that i thought i had messed up my own life for the first time, God showed me the wonders of His ways. i know my life now is definitely turning out for the better. sure, there've been times of hurt n uncertainty, but now i see. tdy, i had a broad smile when i sang this song, 'cos i see how far i've come. i'm so thankful for the works of God in my life, and i hafta proclaim, i'm greatly blessed, highly favoured and deeply loved!



posted at 10:24 PM

Saturday, August 09, 2003

she's doing it again! can't she take the hints?!?! grr... *deep breath* wateva.

my blog really like dat meh... :( hai~ i'm thinking again, why in the whole world did i do this. n still am doing it. also for pple to see. hai~

hmm. juz found out the other day dat tracy was also frm ahs! which is soooo cool, 'cos turns out she, jemi n cheryl were the ones hu begged ms loh to set up netball!! so tracy's, like, my senior for so long, but we only realised now! heh~ no wonder i always felt dere's something abt her dat's so familiar. so great to be doing pbl wif her too. i love pbl!

ydae during l&c tutorial we went to visit the wen hua suite. like so cool to have a hotel suite juz at the end of the corridor!! it really looks like a suite out of the mandarin singapore! l&c tutorials are so fun... nv have hw one, n ms tan is so humorous! i took a pic wif her on my hp... haiya, but i still dunno how to upload pics.

i can't wait for this weekend!! finally, hillsongs australia are back for a concert again!! hmm, yeah, i realise i've become very much a fan of their music. i'm sooo excited! can't wait for a night of praise n worship!
posted at 10:57 AM

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

i said many things to many pple tdy. i prob shldn't haf, but it juz had to cum out. i still can't stand it when i'm forced to put up dat front again. humph. i'm nt so much as depressed, but more of pissed now when it happens.

went shopping for our suits tdy. gosh, dey're so ex! but i tink i found some nice n reasonably priced ones... so exciting!! we're gonna haf our hotel inspection soon!!
posted at 10:30 PM

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

i juz fin watching the show “secrets of singapore” on discovery travel n adventure. n den keti’s hafla which was held in the beginning of the yr was featured, with the host anita kapoor speaking to n dancing with her… hai~ i din go for dat hafla, n it looked gd!! gosh. haven’t seen keti for so long since she moved to egypt, n haven’t been dancing for a few months as well! i miss her, n i miss dancing. lydia din call me leh, wonder wat happened to the lessons i was supposed to join… i tink my joints all stiffen liao. hmm, muz find time to dance again… when. so free yet not free. like now. grr. nt enuff slp n bloating up. humph.
posted at 12:59 AM

Sunday, August 03, 2003

hey fiona! juz wanna dedicate tdy's blog entry to u!! HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! :) heh. i guess u were quite surprised to see me n eunice appearing at ur doorstep dis morn rite, esp since i din sms u at all... heh~ it's really gd to see u after like, wat, a month? it seemed longer... anyway, it was so nice juz hanging wif u again, too bad we din get to tok longer. hmm, i'm quite concerned abt u puking n scratching y'know... i'll be praying for u! anyway, i hope u did enjoy ur day... take care n get well soon! n pls, dun get too skinny... heh~ muz make me look slimmer mah. k lah, i gotta go do my econs tutorial liao. stdy hard n hope to see u soon! God bless, sweetie, n gd nite! XX
posted at 10:41 PM

Saturday, August 02, 2003

i'm in a real good mood tdy!!!!!!! :) cos y? cos i got to go back to tjc!! gosh, it felt so gd seeing all of my frens in 24/02 again!! actually kat told me mr tong wanted me to wear tj uni back n attend double-period gp, n i wanted so much to also!! but, i felt it'd be quite wrong since i dun belong anymore, n ma nag nag nag say wat if i get into trouble blah blah, so in the end i wore home clothes lor.

eeeeeeeee!!! so happy! i dun care y’all wanna read anot, i’m gonna dictate wat happened!!

i walked into tj dis morn, enjoying the beautiful sunshine dat was reflecting off the flowers, when i suddenly realised how... gd, how normal (?!) it felt to be walking in there to cls again!! i tot i'd feel weird since i haven't stepped in there in months, n since i've been walking around huge tp... gosh. i dunno how to explain, but i miss tj so so much! n i used to hate it! i waited for kat n xiaorong outside the audi, n i tink passers-by were quite surprised to see me arnd... it was gd also being able to chat shortly wif meifen, lik yin, evelyn, amalina, raz, zihui n yingling! yeah yingling, gd to seeya! nxt time we take pics ya! den I heard shrieks frm 2nd floor, n I saw kat n xiaorong waving! hee. when i went up to the clsrm, the girls were shrieking, “sharmaine!!” thru the windows n doors, n even the guys were grinning away at me! n yup khairi, i saw ya waving frantically behind! :) all of us yakked n laughed at the same time… felt so gd!! *happy tear* i was quite embarrassed in wearing home clothes, cos sheuying, aiwei n corina were saying i look like relief teacher. heh~ (yeah, i trying to console myself when i rmbr dey said i slim down. hee~)

dey pulled me into the cls, den mr tong came in, den i quietly sat down. i tot he’d shoo me away cos i nv wear uni, but he was so so so nice n kind to me! he asked jovially y i nv wear, if nt other tutors will be so happy to tink i’m returning to tj. thanks, but… y wld i want dem to tink dat? (esp nt maggie. hah.) he seemed to be in a happy mood, n i felt quite paiseh during cls cos he kept asking me cheem qns (which i din noe ans to! like, how i noe where lagos is??! p.s it’s in nigeria. i said greece. @@) n wanting me to speak to the cls… he gave me a lot of attention which i din expect n which i nt used to lah. i was juz enjoying every single moment of the tutorial… in tp, everyone toks at the same time, n it felt so right juz to sit n listen to mr tong baffle us wif amazing stuff we din noe. like gremlins n technology. hah. felt so right. den after cls all of us went crazy taking pics. gosh, i tink others hu saw us prob tink i went missing for 10 yrs n finally made it back or something. took pics wif kat, xiaorong, meiqiang, sheuying, corina, aiwei, su hlaing, dean, joey, grace n weewee… den also wif wei chieh, wilson, khairi n syai. DEN while chatting wif mr tong in the corridor, met peiyu (hey hey! :)) n den cheenapok, yvonne, n wanxuan came along n took pics wif us too. hee… dat cheenapok yell my name frm so far, mr tong was like, “whoa, tdy u’re like a celebrity!” n dey laffed at me. hee. i’m really so flattered n honoured wif all the attention i got frm him n frm my frens tdy… really, really, really thank u guys wif all my heart for making my day so wonderful, really felt like a celebrity!! thanks for making me feel so loved n so welcome, i say again, i love all of ya so much too!! i want so much to be able to hang out wif y’all as 24/02 again, but i noe BIG STUFF cuming along, so i can only pray for y’all frm afar… anyway like i told corina n wenbing, cannot see too often so dat y’all will miss me! okokok… i’ve been self-absorbed for long enuff…

hmm. after tj i rushed to tp for lect. dat was weird. but only 1 lect tdy. shuang. heh. had a bit of fun irritating batman. haha. met up with lindy for Bible stdy after dat at starbucks paragon. got to meet desmond. heh. he looks quite cute n a nice guy, gd for her…! did a lot of sharing with her, she’s a real gem…

ok. it’s 1am sat liao. dis long entry shld satisfy all ye hu adore reading abt my life. hah. fine. wateva. i can hear it already…


posted at 1:07 AM