Saturday, June 21, 2003

been feeling kinda....... lonely(?) these days... all my frens are stdyin. hai~ i keep tinking dat i'm nt part of their lives anymore. frens i knew so well before, suddenly i realise dat dey nv let me into their lives as much as i did with mine... is this normal, like, part of the growing up thing or wat? y do i always feel i'm the odd one? no one seems to want to come to me except when dey need a shoulder to cry on. i mean, i'm real glad for dat, n i do honour dat privilege, but i oso want to be the person pple want to have fun with too... hai~ or issit just me again?
posted at 2:46 AM

Saturday, June 14, 2003

feeling real obese nowadays... been downing burgers in the proportion of how a humpback feeds on plankton. note the striking similarity btwn the species. argh!!! i sometimes cannot believe myself when i hear myself telling pple dat i play netball. like, haha. i look nonesoever like a netballer. heh, tho it always makes me smile when i rmbr how mark said i look more like a weightlifter! :) i'm gonna miss all of them when i leave 2 mondays frm now... i'll prob nv see them anymore... hai~ oh well. anyway, i REALLY have to start sticking to a PROPER HEALTHY diet, or else i'll seriously get too fat! heh, i'll start tomorrow. heh. right.
my orientation starts on the 4th, den i start lessons on the 7th. thank God orientation is only 1 day. i'm nt very enthu abt doing a whole lot of embarrassing stuff with a whole buncha strangers... i m quite excited tho...
met up with wanting n jieying ydae... had great fun! dey've changed quite a lot, we can talk abt guys n more now! hai~ i miss a whole lot of other close friends tho... :(
posted at 10:03 PM

Saturday, June 07, 2003

omigosh... i watched "how to lose a guy in 10 days" yesterday, n.... arggh!!! i'm such a sucker for love stories! matthew mcconaughey is so hot! he has blond curls, a great tan, fab abs, melt-your-heart smile and soulful eyes!!! oh man. even his southern twang is so attractive!! haha. i did the celebrity matchmaker on emode n i'm matched with him! haha. i noe i'm gross. but he's hot. hai. i need a hot guy in my life too. someone to love me forever, for ME to love forever... to share my life with... hai~ i dun tink i'm desperate or anything. juz dat, since i was young, i always thot it'd be no problem dat i would have a guy in my life. but now as i get older, it's kinda getting worrying... i want to live my own romance story too! oh well. i can't control such things. all i can do is wait n keep my hopes up.
posted at 12:59 PM

Friday, June 06, 2003

i'm so, so sian mowadays... n i tink i'm gonna remain like dat for the next month or so. everyone's mugging for jct. so i'm left with alastair n sheryl. hai. i should be enjoying my hols now, i mean, i'm starting poly soon n i won't haf time to enjoy n slack like i m now! i haf the time now, but no munee... wat's the use. oh well. i still got my 1200 piece puzzle. heh.
i haven't seen so many of my good friends for so long... miss them so much. do they miss me? then again, i'm kinda ok on my own now oso leh. i tink i've become very apathetic. i didn't mean to become like that. i'm juz trying to shake off that paranoia in me.
i tink i'm giving up on going for hossam n serena ramzy's performance n workshops. :"( i REALLY REALLY wanna go, but i have no munee... hai~ dey're the best in the world lor, too bad, i'll juz hafta go to egypt to see dem again or something. imagine if i could attend, my bellydancing could get better by so much! too bad. i dun wanna see what i cannot have.
quite upset today. mr tong asked xiaorong hu r the 2 men hu nv died in the Bible. i actually said Jesus. gosh. like, m i dumb or wat lor. ELIJAH N ENOCH. i'll always rmbr that. i probably shld start going for Bible study regularly at the Rock.
oooooooo... i had a great time chatting with him yesterday! :) it was just him n me! at first anyway... i love his grin. i love it dat we can tok so comfortably with each other now... i do realise it's infatuation, or puppy love. but i'm keeping it to myself... i won't hurt her. or him. hai~ he's so nice... i do hope that we become great friends.

posted at 1:05 PM